on Sunday, October 30, 2005
hardly another unevently weekend. thank goodness it wasnt like the last which was sadly UNeventful. well, friday night was uneventful, tho the afternoon wasnt too bad. how boring can cadavers get. they're not! pretty exciting huh, getting lost in those mesenteries and stuff. but rli la, seeing chio girl in chio car on friday was just, timeless. and of cos the chio girl can only be __e and the chio car can only be SLKs. too bad it aint SLK 55 AMG, but a SLK 350 is good enuff.
comeon, i dream of even having a 206 now. seeing that SLK with __e was just 2 wet dreams come true. ok, drop the wet part.
u know, actually, i still cant figure out how to put strikethroughs in html. pls figure it out and tell me ya? which then brings me to another problem! no way u can get back to me from this blog! muahahaha. oh i just love my little semi-private bitching corner.
man, im sorta being random already. somehow i just noticed that the 'literary' and 'intellectual' standard of this orangelair taking a deep dive since i started it a year a few months back. like end j2. must be the fact that i was actually required to do GP thats y i still had that fanciful vocabulary and ideas in this rotting head. then came enlistment. u gotta get stupider, kevlar helms does that well. and in a mugger place u dont really need to write much.
man, i just miss writing essays and stuff. at times, indeed, there would be sudden urges to go write a full blown essay on whatever issue is of pressing concern to me, but im just too damned lazy to get down to it. pui! but its ok, i might just as well stay content with writing a paragraph or a sentence of how i feel. comeon, noone, even myself would have the attention span long enough, thanks to modern media of cos, to actually read an essay. ha!
cant wait for vince to get back and weds to come. then can kope his guitar again and play. and learn to play. learn cos i want to, not cos of some stupid personal project that in the end fucked up big time. stupid la, __e why didnt u just be all those cliches and just melt. argh.
somebody once commented to me this : guys cannot be sian one. when they are sian, can only be 2 things thats making them sian. its either their soccer team lost, or girl problem.
how true. is that y im damn sian now? haiya, so gay. but seriously speaking, i think its pretty true mostly across the board. should be because of the sheer lack of emotional capacity that guys have which brings abt that truth. what little sensitivity and 'emotion' that we can sustain is lavishingly spent on our football and girls. well, girl. whatever. and i still think guys are more easily hurt by girls than the other way round.
at least thats how i feel from the way i've fared in the past. sho sad.
heh, anw sat was pretty fun cept for the misjudgement on my part. think it was a tad too early, and i was having a lack of sleep tooo. lack of sleep = cranky. but still managed to find our way to clara's room to supplies her. thanx chiara for the directions lol! but think cla was pretty stoned also. late nights cranks out cranky ppl.
shes a bleachfan too! muahahaha! welcome then, to the gotei 13.
then watched that dreamship surprise thing. would have been a whole lot better if we understood german, cos i have this niggling feeling that there was a whole lot of german puns in the show. i mean, gotta be wat, cos its like all the german ppl in the audience were guffawing away while we were like, -rolls eyes-
but i like the song. the space taxi song, the showering song and stuff. fucking gay and funny. and halloween at nydc was pretty cool. turns out wheelock had this contest bet the shops for decorating for halloween and stuff, so the whole of nydc was n halloween decor and the staff wore gothic costumes. talk abt ambience. and chanel was in that gothic netting suit thingie. chanel the waitress.
u see, we're almost regulars at nydc anywhere, and we can almost sortof memorise the menu from front to back. of cos chows would be better. think she goes there since forever. im newly ordained into the decadent indulgences of cheesecake and hershey's chocolate sauce and double choc chip ice cream. priscilla's favourite. thats what i had that night, and the last time i went to nydc before that.
man, sharing that dessert with someone so sweet just makes the whole expierence divine. but of cos that sweetness turned sour a few weeks later. argh. piss me off only. so aggravating.
yuck, i cant find tmr's notes. so rubbishy. but i just want monday to faster disappear. then tues can come and its a holiday. and weds i think i have to pon histo halfway to find the bookout/longleave gays. too bad erik doesnt want to go sentosa on weds. stupid la, u all had to have ur wing cohesion there right! so gay.
i need to cut my hair!
cheers.
yk ranted at 11:12 pm!
on Friday, October 28, 2005
wow, just managed to random my way to this damn nice song larh! soooouper good sia, and i was wondering how come i have it. turns out i havent been listening to my MoS 2005 carefully. nice gems hidden in that CD i tell you. this is damn nice sia, this song, puts me on a damn high. great tripping.
Paul Oakenfold feat. Carla Werner - Southern Sun
piece by piece
I release
once was mine
now undone
turned blue like New
Orleans
and went down like
a southern sun
I still feel you
beneath my skin
I am tempted
to throw my senses in'
cos its easier to fly
than to face another night in southern sun
and your love is all around.
grrrrrrrrrreat! haha. but of cos there wud u idiots who wont like any of this kind of songs. u queer shit. but rli la, the vocals just make this piece so damn... epheremal. however u spell it. but theres only one thing i want to make ghostly i tell u.
and its THE DICK-lookalike! you fucking cheebye i will kill you! korose you!
so lame la, and its prolly my fault anw. sud have dragged __e out of the anat hall to consult her snell instead of doing it inside the anat hall so that THE DICK-lookalike can sneak up and offer to ride with her ont he MRT home! fuck you! u fucking cheebye! it might not be obvious to her but it is to me! grrrrrr. knn.
its either that, or __e just refuses to give me a chance. pui!
got to sit in todd's car again today when we all headed to holland v for lunch. nice alfa romeo. now i know whats the big fuss with ssw tay and his alfa romeo. its damn cool la! and pretty solid engineering, and same company as ferrari and friends. they're all under fiat i think. aiya but anw i like his car la, tricked out with a new brakes, exhaust, radiator, and a sexy little amp. add a nice little growl to the car also. slurrrp.
of cos la, marcus's SLK just rapes it. blue SLK 300. but i have a niggling suspicion that that AMG badge is not some lame badge u buy off the shelf and paste it there as he claims his brother have done. come on, his bro drives a maesarati and their family is damn rich la, no kick pasting a fake AMG badge on it. whatever it is, damn cool. and so was his passenger lah. the rest of us were squeezing into todd's 147.
i tell u, the girl on the passenger seat of marcus's SLK was just stunningly beautiful. its beyond chio ok. shes beautiful. just, breathless. a hot chick on a hot car.
surprisingly i know her! in fact, its __e! hahaha.
im fucking lame la. shit leh, im just like abit jealous also. of the car lah. like how cool sia, 20 yrs old get to drive the so called 'middle aged divorcee's car'. and to have such a hot girl in ur passenger seat. marvellous ok. but most imptly, dont think __e is that materialistic la, cos shes goanna earn the obscene kind of salary in some years time also, but somehow i just have this niggling impression that being poor just makes myself look lousier in her eyes.
u know, i think i agree with erik. i hate being poor.
pui! but i tell you, instead of some SLK 350, i will get this dream car of mine instead. SLK 55 AMG, with a sexy 5.5 liter engine giving out 360 HP and 376 ft lb of torque. and it looks just damn good la. just needs __e in the passenger seat and it'll be my perfect car. haa haa haa.
chio right?? so perfect. except for the passenger seat. really!
cheers.
yk ranted at 7:38 pm!
on Wednesday, October 26, 2005
i think i lost a post. aha.
lame la.
tmr get to go to nuh to play with the cardio monitoring thingie. brilliant! sounds like great fun to me. then goanna head out with ang and osm to get smthn. friday's unplanned. dunno why i left it so, but hey, dont care la, tmr's thurs so very quickly the weekend's goanna be here. i'd be glad.
u know, sometimes u are just so lost u need direction. i do. but noone's pointing out the right way. and u know, sometimes the light u see at the end of the tunnel is just another oncoming train. so im pretty much lost and a goner.
tired liao la.
im koping the wireless connection again. i feel damn evil, but hey, its free so what can i do? heh heh, lousy justification tho, as lousy as how __e is very cold. not fated means not fated la, but i just feel unnerved. anw, shall not digress heh. wireless must share! be a good neighbour. cept that if i do get wireless at home i'll make sure its properly protected.
the irony of it all is this. ppl think they're oh-so-high-tech when they have what fuck wireless at home and stuff. u know, techno-poseurs who actually know nuts abt what's what. and then they have no blinking idea how to set up a simple WEP password. hohoho. what morons.
u know, poseurs of any sort ought to shot. pose so much for wat, in the end u just suck.
but i know i want who to suck mine. muahahaha. but at least im still not mister wrong. mm, hopefully next weds plan goes all well, i kinda miss that little sunny island south of our bigger island. tho i heard that palawan beach is where the homosexuals gather. i'd be sure to avoid that place. getting hit on by fags is an unpleasant experience.
argh, but the connnection is jumpy. onoffonoffonoff. damn annoying la. so i shall skip chatting for a night. its a night for myself. even sexy textbooks can distract me.
why oh why issit so unfated! i feel so... so... maligned? perhaps. still very sian and very suay. i've commented b4 and i still agree, i can only like/fall in love/whatever fuckshit with a girl who will never recipocate the feelings. 'im sorry, but i cannot love you the way u do me' HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA sounds damn funny lah. but its more applicable here than in SK's case. why didnt i get a room at KE. even pgp. then destiny plan would have occured naturally. why didnt i go for medicamp? destiny plan might've worked if i ended up in the right place. why dont u just feel the same way as i do for u and it'll all work. i promise!
haha. im a sad case.
cheers.
yk ranted at 11:03 pm!
on Tuesday, October 25, 2005
im starting to hate my own balls. u know, testicles. and everything thing thats arnd it, dunno wat fascia what fuck. so confusing. makes me lost only. and ssw tay makes it sound so simple. if its as simple as any buunch of family jewels.
but of cos u gotta know, jewels, esp heirlooms, have complicated histories.
thats y la. knn.
cheers.
yk ranted at 8:44 pm!
on Monday, October 24, 2005
i love chocolate too. and chocolate cakes.
chocolate fans of the world unite (^_^)
i like dat. brings a smile to my face, at least i know someone actually appreciates the nice things i do for them instead of shrugging it off as 'just another lame attempt and i shall dao u cos if it' as per __e. heh. as i said im bitter.
im hearing the interesting song i always hear while on the bus to cj last yr. this is for the april-july period, when i was still actally fit and was able to run almost 20-25 minute mac ritchie routes. now i doubt i can even complete 3 km at a fail-2.4 pace. haha. anw, the song is I Feel Love by CRW. or something. this song always accompanies that lame anime i watch on TV mobile abt some wierd meteorites or something that will be destroyed by this gundam thingie on earth.
forgot wat's that show called. i know its damn lame.
and then i'll head to sch, having seen very few chiobus on the way. maybe caught a glimpse of chio hc neighbour but of cos then i didnt have the guts or actually didnt bother talking to her. so anw, head to sch and dump my stuff at the grandstand. few ppl wud be there. frits would be there sleeping. so's yx. i'll then go down and start running 2.4. everyday without fail.
occasionally see fat andrew walking. he couldnt be bothered.
then after the run i'll head back to grandstand to sit with the rest. pek eric vince yyg joel and maybe edwin will be there already. sometimes frits wud have had his dose of his daily SNYG drug and got the key and we'll head up to class. i wud change. shimon wud just come up also after his own run, and change. then we talk cock in class/sleep/whatever the trend is then.
head for assembly. maybe we'll get to see THF or TH. we'll start talking abt them. then time to shut up when councillors walk to the front. say morning prayer. sing rubbish propaganda song. say propanganda pledge. announcements and bhb-ness. bro paul kao peh/compliment/whatever fuck. then we'll all head back to class for tutorial, or some days it'll be lectures. tues is physics lect. mon is PSE or something. thurs is like RME. weds got chem or maths, forgot. friday also.
typical cj morning for me. the days wud be varied and fun and full of shit cos i was with the greatest bunch of gays to hang out with. the gforce. love ya guys! rli enjoyed the 2 yrs in cj, YOU made it bearable for me. and of cos the 2 yrs in sji was priceless.
going back to guytons now.
cheers.
yk ranted at 11:06 pm!
on
what the fuck! what a bitchy lecturer. even worse than me, cos its not the fun bitchy its the BITCH bitchy. knn.
because she decided to start early, then the whole bunch of us was punctual. ok, at the most aminute or 2 late. then that good ol cheebye just told us off and told us to get out. pui! like how paiseh la. knn.
command respect, woman, dont demand it. cos demand alwahys outstrips supply and the supply will just run out.
argh. disgusting.
and __e also not so nice. i saved her ass from entering the lect hall late and getting fucked by bitch. but still as dao as ever. why? why are u so cruel. argh. and make me the most miserable creature on earth.
hmmm evelyn just told me abt her dad. airforce doctor. damn cool la. and got flying license. cool sia!
but i want a license. license to kill. muahaha. and license to get laid everyday.
shit lah, im not listening to lecture. how!? aiya, i think i'll pon FA and go home then. so sian.
cheers.
yk ranted at 10:30 am!
on Sunday, October 23, 2005
just. bored. again.
this time on a fine sunday night tho. another round of a week at good ol medfac where the peoples are as fun as a pile of rocks or a wall that has just been painted and im here to see it dry. or im jsut bitter that im having the fun i expected to get out of the greenland. oh wells. just too bad.
bitching is good for my health. lest all these bitchiness keeps getting bottled up and explodes one fine day into many little fragments flying off at high speed, cutting everyone around me in a sharp wave of bitchiness. man, aint i just a bitter bitch. yea, it rhymes.
bitter bitch.
but today wasnt as boring as most sundays. frits and fats came over to my place and we were divided among the opinion that __e is damn fucking chio. i think shes damn chio lah. super chio. only those 2 fools just refuse to see the truth that is just staring them straight in the face, screaming to be recognised. but what good can that be if ur showing it to blind men? haha. but ok lars, i agree that andrea li is pretty cute. damn petite. damn.... lolitaish. she could come suck my cock and i'd be happy.
but of cos the only thing that wud make me happier is if __e just becomes mine. and me, her's. wow. so sweet right? haiya.
rli la, shes just so damn chio! and i have photographic evidence to prove. must conduct a unbiased experiment. cos u see, these faggots are intent on proving the unfounded 'fact' that i have queer taste in girls. so i must prove them otherwise, and show that its all a setup, and that i have the correctest taste in the world.
argh i dont want to go to sch and get immersed in all the politics of it all. it just sucks. gone are the days when u go to sch to actually meet FRIENDS instead of colleagues to be whom u have to shoot down cos they're in ur way of a promotoion. man, i rli miss the force. and force friends. and t17. and other ppl in cj. and all the songs that accompanied me thru the dark nights of attempting to mug and crying over some silly slut that refused to look in our direction.
yea, sluts. with codenames. codenames are way better than __e or a______y or __a__ or whatever fuck. so lousie. creative juices are just goin down the drain lah. codenames are so cute, and so full of character. like TH. or TS. DtS, TUS. and many more. think frits has a comprehensive list of sluts that we liked to look at. hmmm.
okok i go slp loh. ttaz
cheers.
yk ranted at 11:58 pm!
on Saturday, October 22, 2005
Take The Quiz Yourself!
im damn lame now la, this kind of quizilla things also do. aha. but i like the new bleach opening. ichirn no hana. damn cool la, cooler than D-tecnolife. and its by the same band that did gundam seed destiny opening, with a damn strange name. High and Mighty Colour. only colour i want to be is good colour. get it?
argh! im so damn sian. first saturday in dunno how many months since, i think, before a lvls ended, that i stayed at home. or came home before midnight. looks like my social life is indeed going down the mugger path. its going to be destroyed. cos u see, i almost wanted to go mug just now. omg! scary sia, its the slippery slide to being a
i hate myself sometimes. seriously. for doing all the stupid things.
argh! zhenzhen! help me get a room at ke! then settle everything liaos. the destiny plan that will take estimatedly at least a year to complete. it seems improbable, the plan that is, but hopefully it might just work. i want it to work. i beg for it to work. haha. but of cos the 2nd main reason is this. to me, uni just aint uni til i get to stay in hall. my dreams of studying in LSE are shattered by events that happened earlier this yr. so if i aint goanna go overseas to stay by myself at least in sgp ba.
then u can have all those ui aik's hostel nights.
im ok with ui aik the eggman. only for the dog part.
aha. gosh im really at a loss as to what to do on this boring saturday night. so i just turn on iTunes. and clicked on michael buble again. his cover of What a Wonderful World. pretty nice. all these old sentimental songs are evergreen for a reason. u just cant get sick of it and its so easily accessible. so much for me having a very strange and very 'acquired' taste in stuff, as the gays would say i do, in music and stuffs, esp girls.
pui! petite is good ok! its very good. imagine, so small, so cute! so flattering! and i think to myself, what a wonderful world. haha thats damn lame.
speaking of iTunes and stuff, incidentely im using my PC now. but i was fiddling arnd with my mac awhile ago. turns out i can paste these little "post its" on the desktop and stuff. wow! mac is so interesting la. all these quirky little things that just make life easier. PCs just seem so hard to use now if u ask me. aha. and i discovered voice recognition on the mac. i can just say "computer! switch to iTunes" and it will switch to iTunes. i can say any word i want to, to activate whatever command.
like how cool is that lah! power. and got that automaton thing program. can make the computer do all sorts of saikang for u that would involve lots of tedious work. like renaming a whole lot of files and stuff. mac rox man. buy mac!
heh heh, im turning into a mac freak.
argh! im hearing the song that's making me heartsick now. aiyo. heart sick = heart pain = angina pectoris. ah! so, guys, to prevent heart attack, listen to lesser sad songs, or learn from ppl like vinsingh for successful relationships one, after another, after another, after another... u get the idea. master sia that guy. im just a poor sad guy here who's heart only gets wrenched out and torn apart by one girl, after another, after another, after another. u get the idea also.
haiz. and yay! i found a comrade in arms in these matters. she understands what i feel cos she kenna same rubbish also. happening sey, and i thot i must be the one loser in this world who's like this. heh. maybe not. but i told her, its cos they dont appreciate how nice we are, so its their loss.
hmm was listening to another nice song on the randomness of iTunes. it was playing this beautiful song. or rather, piece. cos its not a song. brings back memories. i still remember, it was the first ever trance song i ever heard in my life. was just watching mtv asia on some random late night when this song came out. the music video damn cool la. its those modern art-ish kind of thing. got this strange robotic arm moving arnd, diagrammatic blueprint versions of it, etc etc. the song? Tenshi. by gouryella. damn cool.
haha. ok la, i go find some other lame things to do now ba. ttaz.
cheers.
yk ranted at 11:10 pm!
on Friday, October 21, 2005
dunno why, even tho ur just next to me, i feel as though theres a wall between us. why issit the case? why do i feel so funny around you? why cant we be normal? like before all these rubbish. sometimes u just wanna turn back time and enjoy what hath happened and hope that it will last forever, turning bettere each day. but of course luck always seem to be bad to me so none worked. argh. so sad lor.
wow burning CDs on mac is so fucking easy! lol. so easy that i didnt know how to do it in the first place. thot need to open some silly program or wat. turns out just click and drag into the desktop icon and when its all done press 'buurn' next to the ikon. cool huh.
so now we wait. testing. maybe mac cd-r burn format is different then everything just fucks up and wont read. thats what some dude told me when he experimented burning cds on his ibook. heh. hopefully it'll work. haiz. burning the cd pretty fast huh.
and,
so now we wait. wait for the anat pract to start. haiz, the smell again. haha. and just now went to central library to pass the rovers girl the money. well, her arts fren is pretty gd looking, turns out shes from sa. hmmm. not bad sia, too bad ur not as hot or chio as __e. muahaha.
well, still, im still just bitter, but cant help it, i think i still care for u, tho it might just not be too deep. heh! cos i still managed to ZG MUAHAHA i've got sharp eyes newman, u just gotta admit it. it's BLACK today. haa haa haa.
omg im like so evil pui!
okok its abt time to chiong downstairs for pract loh. ttaz.
***
and pract finished. got to stone from from 3-5 now. stupid la __e not going for the mtg at 5 cos of some mentor thingie, so i dont have an excuse to impose myself upon her at my benefit. haiz. sucks. pract was damn boring today. sooouper boring. i want dr ng back! ssw tay is a killer ok. then at the end of it all when we thought we were saved from his rubbish he keeps on ranting abt his old sch. montford or something. surprisingly not a mention of his pet topic Alfa Romeo cars and stuff. bloody hell hes got a fetish for conti cars esp alfa romeos. haiyo, if u ask me, german engineering beats wherever alfa romeo came from. but i'll make do with a 350z if i dont get my SLK.
wah piang eh, just kenna pang sehed for the soma mtg. maybe i'll pon also. so gay.
during pract, as i mentioned earlier, it was so damn boring. and the stench is quite horrid. but i had this 'conversation' with my tut mate. not __e, too bad, but equally funny. hot bod tho aha but i shall not digress.
she : im so bored. i need a male
me, raises eyebrows : what!?
she : i need a male!!
me : i am.
she : a meal. and suddenly i feel like puking. partly cos of the smell and partly what u said.
me : -.-
haha u get the idea. u need a male. oh, and ssw tay was just going on and on abt wat family jewels and dunno what shit. ANATOMICAL family jewels. u know, the balls and stuff. turns out ur balls are high up in ur body when ur a baby and it drops down from the kidney there through the "inguinal canal" bringing with it its own fascia etc rubbish down to ur scrotum. wow. i didnt know that. but still,
what the fuck!? family jewels! lol. the only family jewels i know is pretty gross cos it involves pek's nurse hentai dvd. but that nurse is pretyt cute. tho of cos not even half as good as __e cos as usual, hentai artists make them too big. petite is good. i hate big ones. yucks. pui!
anw right now im just wasting my battery until it dies so i can go home and sleep. after all kenna pang seh wat, so dont care la, go home since and later soma also alot of ppl nt going cos of mentormeeting thingie. so the one chiobu, __e, that shows promise wont be going. so no point going! and im nt flying off for the dec trip, so why bother. go home still can help gideon burn the cd-r's. more interesting. and go home can watch pr0n alsoo. most interesting.
talk cock until now also 5pm liaos. dunno if i sud go. bah. maybe not la. just go home. aha.
cheers.
yk ranted at 12:35 pm!
on Thursday, October 20, 2005
tell me when will you be mine,
tell me quando quando quando,
we can share a love devine,
please dont make me wait again.
when will you say yes to me,
tell me quando quando quando.
you mean happiness to me,
oh my love please tell me when.
i like this song! heh heh. just that i think buble looks a tad like a fag. but im sure hes not. right?
cheers.
yk ranted at 2:40 pm!
on Wednesday, October 19, 2005
today was spent trying to recover from that very bad stomachache and flu. so got lots of time to think. one thing came to my mind. i fucking missed detox lecture! cheebye, so far i only know up to phase 2. conjugation. elimination is untouched. wow, great thoughts i tell ya. and thinking abt a few other stuffs. seems to me that this week the DICK lookalike is having trouble with little miss troublesome. maybe not. mine eyes have not seen the glory.
but should i be right in my 'guess' then well, too bad you DICK. haa haa. and then of cos thinking left and thinking right led me to the thought that maybe i was mistaken in the belief that __e might just be right. well, its still early to say, cos i dont know you at all, but the circumstance now seems to be that we prolly will stay that way. sadly. sucks la i tell you. and then of cos theres being a tad of a confusion too someplace else.
aiya, maybe i should just be a monk. no wait, that is no good. i will then do what i wanted to do the past few months of my life. i've decided to do this! get mbbs, serve out the gay bond and whatever, if given a chance to specialise then in a relevant discipline, and quit singapore for good. join red cross or some international aid organisation and work in poverty-ridden countries for the rest of my life as a volunteer, the only luxury which i will enjoy is the the tricked out 350z i will buy in several years time.
my my, what an idealist! and my ideal was faced with 'derision' when i told a significant someone abt it. she said it was very idealistic (im not denying it) and that wasnt bad, cept that, what r u going to live on? handouts for the rest of ur life? makes sense, but i feel that me, being so taikolly end up in medicine, should take this oppurtunity to study medicine and return something to society-at-large, not just being confined here in singabloodypore doing things the silly govt tells us to.
heh!
hmm just realised that google is too damn powerful a search tool. u see, gsy managed to google this place out using his name as the key! wtf sia. how gay. and his name appeared in an ancient post lors. good for u then. there goes my record of "nobody except for t17 and a few cj frens know this place exist". in fact i assumed that once i enlisted and with that the sudden lack of updates would mean nobody comes here no more and i can bitch all i want.
still true now, if gsy doesnt tell any med ppl abt this place. cos its too bitchy. so bitchy that once u read it u will just want to jump out of the window screaming "argh biiiitch!"
hmmm iTunes just decided to play some nice songs that i used to hear in j2. nice shrek2 ost songs. heh, random until so pro. haiz. somehow i relate periods in my life to songs i hear at that time. listening to this, I Need Some Sleep - Eels, just reminded me of those good ol days back in jc. slacking everyother day, playing dnd, watching movies with either the gays or the gabrielites+yyg, 'mugging' in town, and nydc. yes nydc, our place of choice then. still remembered the night we watched shrek 2. cant remember what day was it, or what happened in sch that day, cept that miss lim joined us for it. haha. lets see, there was edwin, shimon, joel, yyg. i think. and it was a friday night, and we watched at lido. i still have the ticket stubs!
in fact i have all the ticket stubs of every single show i watched. and it is just so damned obvious that once i enlisted the number of movies i watched just dropped so dramatically. so sad. too bad __e doesnt like going out with ppl 'she doesnt feel the connection' with, HAHA! hey hey, its up there among the other lines. like 'im sorry but i cant love you the way you do me.' thx SK! lol! haa haa.
man, im just being mean and bitter and digressing. heh. somehow i just feel that medicine wont be as enjoyable as jc. including sajc. somehow its just so ironic. i didnt rli looked forward to be in cj, neither did i feel that i would enjoy my time there, but at the end of it all, at hindsight, yes, i can say fo sho that it was a great 1.75 years i spent there. surprisingly. but simply because of the great friends i made there, ppl like shimon and SK, clara, usharmaine etc. basically my class was just damn great la, even tho we couldnt be bothered to mix arnd with other classes. im just a lazy phuck.
oo and just to think that a year ago on this day i was going thru some major shit. the major spat with vince over something i felt was unjust and wrong but selfish on my part and when i look back now, the only person that was hurt was the person i cared for and did not want to hurt at all! the irony. and im pretty sure no1 will know what im talking abt ahahahaha. of cos then i thought i was pretty down, but the worse has yet to come. 2004-2005 had been cruel to me. but i have tided the worst that could have been thrown at me, and only have the bright future to look at. tho in the short term it looks miserable. med fac has been the most un-fun and un-enjoyable place i've been and honestly, i think it sux.
of cos, thats what i thought of cj at first.
but i miss all things 2004. like the OC season 1, vince's burnt cd of interesting songs, Kid A, and lame lectures which we pon like theres no tmr so that can play bball or dnd.
hmmm, and i think i've broken a new record sia, i actually found a girl who thinks ons are interesting! grrrreat! looks like horniness is not confined to guys. aha. but its an alleged claim la, could be bullshit after all. but rli la, i enjoyed sat night. very much. just that i dunno if i should. heh. mysterious. and no, it doesnt involve ons, tho if it did it would be fun and interesting haa haa haa.
ok then i shall go and watch house now. the show of choice in 2005. so's Lost. heard there's a Lost season 2. wtf? another season of hanging out on a deserted island? lol. goanna laugh 1st.
ttaz,
cheers.
yk ranted at 8:52 pm!
on Monday, October 17, 2005
pretty confused now. rli dunno wat to do. sud i be an evil dick and keep more cards in ur hand. i think i should, afterall it's a losing hand and there's no harm in drawing extra cards. right? but i somehow think that its wrong la. and its like having that would dilute the losing hand. well, u get it? of cos not.
yk you must be dreaming, stories like this can come true.
i speak in riddles, and its just like me!
bad spoof! bloody hell i should have brought my comp lar, so damn bored now considering that theres 2half hrs to the next tutorial. argh. so im using zhenzhens compt to write this. ok so maybe not so bored now, but her mac osx skin on winXP is very confusing.
woohoo bf2 is damn fun. now SGT YK liao. muahaha. got 3 unlocks to play with somemore. think they reduced the global points for ranks liao. somehow i LCP jump to SGT so fast. and suddenly lots of masters hanging arnd the servers. but shit la, heli skillz no good liao. must train somemore loh!
ok talk more rubbish another time then. just got to add that sat night was sooouper enoyable ^^
cheers.
yk ranted at 2:12 pm!
on Saturday, October 15, 2005
wow, i rli enjoyed tonight. somehow. strangely. i thot i would not be able to.
but i did.
and i thank you for it. though it just only confuses me more. =)
cheers.
yk ranted at 11:06 pm!
on Friday, October 14, 2005
you're just sitting there, packing. i'm walking down the stairs already, each step with trepidation. you're talking, each each sweet sound reaching to an unworthy audience. i look intently, and jealously, at your beauty. you seem to have sensed it, but i turned away before you could look at me. i just want to disappear.
or you can hold me back. i wish you would hold me back.
cheers.
yk ranted at 11:55 am!
on Thursday, October 13, 2005
i could really kill somebody now.
argh.
why sia. its torturous to look at you. ur tormenting me. i only want so little, just a little attention, a little hope that you actually give a damn that i exist, but no, issit too much too ask for?
i know u know the truth. hard as it must be for me to try to deny it but i guess u might still think that way. and ur obviously happily torturing me with that knowledge. perhaps i've been wrong abt myself. why should i subject myself to all these? argh. oh well. i've become irrational already.
bloody dick is damn annoying. rli lar, looks exactly like THE DICK. grrr.
and i wonder why has every post been abt this rubbish. i think i sud actually be happy again, instead of being so miserable and ruining my beautiful M1 year. aha
still, its my little bitching posts and what better things to bitch about than the dick. grrrr. i shall not even try to hide my contempt for the dick. muahaha. argh i cant wait for the weekend to come. weekends are usually uneventful, free-from-'politics of med sch', friendly and it actually makes me happy. its thursday already. looking forward to watching tv tonight, and very quickly, its friday.
shall go out with c coy platoon two again. nice to meet all the brave soldiers of the SAF, defending our nation against terrorists and modern threats from nonexistent enemies, again. and heard from viswa that my PC in stagmont is now RSM of 21st signal brigade, in which the signal platoon of 2SIR is under, according to him. so warrant eric is still his boss. and mine too, if i have not disrupted to come to this wretched mugger place that i want to be and try to make a difference which of cos i predict i will fail miserably cos of the DICK and the sheer muggerishness in the air together with __e distracting me and making my life difficult thata i so want to escape from it all, all that i ever wanted.
ironic.
get it?
anyways i did just digress. as i was saying, my PC at stagmont who is now RSM 21 sig brig, is going to get his team to play soccer against my old staggie platoon mates. maybe on sunday i'll go and take a look.
omg cholesterol biosynthesis transport and utilization is damn guai lan. its pathways are pretty strange and the way it is used in the body is just so damned wierd. ivan is insisting that i publish this. not yet. bitching has to be done.
alright, something interesting. once read that superficial lame bitchy personal blogs like this dont lastmore than 3 months. its been a year + already and i update pretty often enough to satiate my hunger to bitch abt anything under then sun. so i've only just proven that im not a victim of statistics then. funnily, similar blogs like this like frits they all have since died and relegated to the great dark beyond of cyberspace. oh you unpreservering bitches who did not realise the great fun of bitching here online abt ppl who doesnt know this place exist. and no way they can bitch back to you cos u have no tagboard or comments or whatever fuckshit, so u can write whatever the fuck you want.
esp writing abt how THE DICK sucks and deserves to die. i must learn the zamato skills from frits now. muahaha. to cleanse this world of such vermin. pui! oh yeah, and i found this interesting book, the politically incorrect guide on islam. will not link it cos i think its a damn wrong book. yes, interesting but wrong, but also something fritters wud totally agree on cos hes obviously very against anything remotely malay. aha. but that book goes on abt how it was actually the muslims that actually started the crusades, how their golden age is all a sham, how the koran and all allows and in fact preaches warfare and all. wow. that is fantastically bigoted and screwed up view huh, cos if thats the case then u can of cos dig out as many if not more unsavoury facts abt any religion in the world. ya?
argh i rli cant stand the dick liaos. im so going to kill him. bloody hell, ur making my life so difficult, and personally, i think that you dont deserve someone so nice and so pure and so pristine. to the likes of the dick lookalike. alright im just sore and bitter, but hey, my instincts, tho never right, was never wrong too. aha. but rli la, that dick is making my life so damn difficult now, and so're you, __e, ur making it hard for me too.
the tragedy of yk, he only seems to have an affection for people who doesnt reciprocate.
ok i gtg first. slp time.
cheers.
yk ranted at 11:59 pm!
on Wednesday, October 12, 2005
dont reply dont reply lor.
you're so complicated.
i mean, more like cruel. ur just teasing me u know. and it is not fun being teased this way. its. cruelty.
aha.
anw, had our first thorax tutorial. can sense the difference bet our old tutor and SSW tay. i think i pref Dr Ng more lor, hes obviously the more liberal educator and tay the more conservative type. Ng does his best to be inclusive in his lessons and more lenient, and all, but tay is pretty strict abt appearances. but tay doesnt digress as much as ng does.
if u ask me, ng is digression king. we can spend a tutorial introducing ourselves. haha.
still, i like profs who collect sports cars. the very fact that they are into cars already make them a much nicer person. aha. =)
i like this song. nice song that i managed to discover the title FINALLY last night while looking throug shared music folders (unwittingly of course) at NUS central library hee hee hee. too bad my mac dont let me copy the songs straight away. if u ask me, if theres any problem with macs/apple stuffs its the fact that they damn cheebye anti-piracy/super proprietatory etc whatever u wanna call it. cant even copy music from ur ipod into ur comp. pui. anw.
Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out
So if you're lonely,
You know i'm here waiting for you,
I'm just a crosshair,
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken shattered alive
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot..
then we can die
Ooohahhhhh
I know I wont be leaving here with you
I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out
I say you don't show
Don't move time is slow
I say... take me out
YES! TAKE ME OUT! im like so damn bored. cant even be bothered to go for that mentor meeting cos its like nobody informed me by the time i got home. somemore got that bisexual poseur fella in my mentoring grp. turned off liao. maybes i'll email my mentor some day. aha. enjoyable. too bad not so heng as to get the same mentor as __e. if rli get then i damn steam loh. aha, as steam as that day at the anat notice board looking at the anat groupings.
i was looking at my name. group 9. wow. then this thought just ran thru my mind, or rather a plea.
"hopefully __e also same grp. then maybe i might just go n jio her after all. aha"
cos just know her only mar. then like how zhun rli same grp. hmmm. fated? maybe not, cos i just feel so stupid now. stupid stupid stupid.
am i being incoherent? then the objectives of this tutorial is met. thank you class.
cheers.
yk ranted at 4:53 pm!
on Tuesday, October 11, 2005
there is a great black fag sitting next to me. he scares me. his name is newman cheng. aaaah! and like me, he did not prepare for tutorial. why? dunno.
today pbl postponed again. as usual. but then was just innformed that its not 'as usual' cos the tutors changed. so its still usual that we get a slack doctor again huh. as usual. confused? as usual. so pbl postpone, no point to come to sch so early for fuck for a stupid 4 hr break? fuck la, so stupid, so pon morning lecture. pon star.
i will read guytons to make up for it. i hope.
daoed again. doesnt matter to me. lazy to reply on ur hp then forget it la. and as i said and will reiteierate now, im already here and always will be here for you. its up to u to take it or not. heh heh. but then again, chow strategy should work. tho i dont see the reason behind it. and its her bday soon. end of this month to be exact. wonder what to buy for her. another ork cd? haiyo.
ok newman wants to know who christine is. cos he says hes frens says shes hot. rli arh? my anat grp 1 leh. chio la, not damn hot, so i point her out to him. hes trying to stare hard, but the DICK lookaliike is in the way. too bad. with that guy arnd it'll spoil everything.
newman sucks cock. cos he says she's ugly. psycho guy, as usual. he still claims that lynette is chio. i think shes hot only. and then hes going on abt how she will say... ok la dont say la, later NEWMAN CRY. maybe another time. he also says that he is gay. ok now since hes not here liao and im at central library, he said that she will probably go smthn like
"prof jeya, i'll do ANYTHING for an A... anything!" giviing him the LOOK.
"anything?" he replies,
"how about... study?"
omg what a gay. but i agree. she does have abit of that bimboish look. so bimbo that even when pooj tries to act like one also cannot beat. aha. limbos from a bimbo... still waiting for it, i'll be the publisher muahaha.
ok so now im at central library wif the tigress *roar* and trying to do anat tutorial, but help! this laptop is so distracting! haiz. but seriously la, i need a good eye candy now. like __e. and maybe her to talk to me. then maybe i'll feel motivated to work aha. but anw true la, how i can i like some one i dont know. i dont even know u. maybe i dont even like u. its just a silly infatuation that one must get over with in order to achieve great things. like. actually finding some who would recipocrate your devotion. but as of now i guess im deluded. and tho i know im deluded the delusions just seem so perfect, so right, so... desirable.
brings me to anothe rpoint. i keep telling myself. and ppl who know me, no point being so buaya or what fuck la, cos when it happpens it'll happen. u'll just somehow find and get together with the one ur meant to be forever and live happily ever after. right, gay and lame. but then, do u like find someone and go all out for it, or if its meant to be both of u will just get hooked up. aha. dunno la. and whoever who said that a relationship needs to be worked out, or whatever shit, is lame. cos if it happens it happens. as usual.
aha.
ok so i've got the yunnan ans from zhenzhen liaos. or rather, elaine. haha. so i can stop referring to my stupid wheaters and just copy it all liao larh! pui. and jack's essays also. bao ka liao loh. can slack now. heh. but cant go off la, i've promised tigress to stay til past nightfall. dunno her fascination for mugging in sch, i cant never get that.
ok i shall go back to mugging now, in a while, see if i have anything to write, then i'll write. if its meant to right, i'll right. haha! as usual huh. ok la, i've rli run out ideas to write. not even socio-political events that are SHAKING the world to its very foundations will not spur me to bitch abt laucy public/economic/intnl/whatever policies that laucy govts use today. which reminds me, i think i know why medsoc so koyak liao, so koyak that we dont even have a proper medicine orientation (cept for that lousy float). think its because the medsoc elections just reminds me of siingapore general elections.
uncontested GRCs, the usual suspects ie one term after another after another and all, reeks of psuedo-(THE LOCAL AND ONLY POLITCAL PARY)-ness. u know i cant type out THE LOCAL AND ONLY POLITICAL PARTY's name. i'll be killed for that. comeon, even students bitching abt teachers also can get fucking sued. and racist bloggers too.
i mean, comeon la, get a life. this is a public space that we can bitch abt anything we want. if our dear government and its fucking lackeys are going to stifle this last remaining and pristine outlet for public frustrations/creativity/etc, u can forget abt moving to another 'rennaisance' or 'whatever fuck shit its getting so corny HUB' or anything. i tell u our govt is screwed up. only breeds a whole generation of people who are so politically and socially indifferent that throw them into a democratic place they'll probably get lost.
rli la, so many things this silly govt of ours have said or done that makes me feel quite ashamed to be a sgp-ean. like for eg, that term 'heartlanders' coined by our good ol snr mnstr, i find that it is a totally elitist, egoistic and insensitive word to use to describe our citizens who live in the so called "heartlands" of old hdb estates and all. just because they dont live in swanky condos/pte apts and hang out or work in the metropolis doesnt meant u can relegate them to a third class citizen status, or rather, psuedo. (2nd class is for allthe non-heartlander types, remember its always FOREIGN TALENT that rox, according to our suck cock govt)
to me, heartlanders is just a sugar coated 'san ba'. highly insulting.
anw, this girl just go up right infront of me in the lib. nice body sia, too bad the face leaves much to be desired. nice boobs nice ass nice everything but her face not nic ela, looks like some cheena monster. with big teeth too. beaver. haha. cover the face and attack the base!
i heart you.
cheers.
yk ranted at 4:50 pm!
on Monday, October 10, 2005
i will kill you!!!!@!~!11!!1
omg and u look like THE DICK also. zz. the legendary dick. pui. i hate u. argh.
i love being bitchy.
ok, back to normal now, seriously, its going to a pretty tough week. tons of tutorials tmr and weds. today theres extra pract and then still got soma meeting x2. try to tahan then. but i just can stand the fact that 'destiny' plan needs to be rescheduled. and reworked. why cant the world just cooperate with me. bleah. anyone would be pissed off. but im not, im just, disappointed.
omg wtf is that on the screen. lipids!? looks like greek to me. wtf, why hasnt i seen it before other than on myself? oh i just realised, didnt come to lect last thursday. oh shit, how do i regret it.
it is merely just a chance i want, i need, to prove my worth. but why do u deny that to me? are you that cruel?
or issit because of THE DICK? haha. he rli looks like the dicky amazing race guy back at cj. fugly fag. grrr. im just bitter, forgive me, but i just hate the fact that she actually seems happy arnd him! aggravating. u get the idea. bloody hell la, he rli looks damn anti social towards every 1 lor, except for __e. like wtf sia. i'd feel sorry for __e pui, i'd die before i ever get to know a sooouper anti social fella.
worse, jaguar coy somemore. sworn enemy of charlie coy. argh why am i being so superficial now.
there must be a strategy. no more tactics. i've been tactical, but thats a wrong approach. its not a tactical war for the colonels. its a strategic war for the generals (TIME, referring to the irak fiasco). a broad and encompassing strategy is needed now. the war must be fought, and won, even if it means utterly destroying all enemies that impede my path to total and sure victory! but as of now, im doubting that victory can be assured. it sure is elusive.
maybe the chow's strategy would give a better chance than 1) vince's blitz, 2) frits directness, 3) pek's cold war aka NATO.
yes. i am incoherent. here's more to it. the whole intro for u vince! before u book in to changi airport! strange isnt it, hes going to be occifer very soon. 2LT vinsingh the turbanator, a few more weeks when he comes back from taiwan. taiwan. nice things to eat and chiobus to see, according to seechai. walaoeh, heard my unit might be flying off to taiwan once the monointakers are done wif their BMT. knn.
"If music be the food of love, play on,
give me excess of it that, surfeiting,
the appetite may sicken and so die."
do u know wherr's it from? heh heh. Lord Orsino (i think) from twelf night (or What You Will). stupid sec2 lit text. a very unfunny romantic comedy. gosh now u know how great shakespearean wit and humour is.
(to the lovesick 'lord')
"will you go hunt my lord?"
"hunt what?"
"the hart."
fucking lame.
blah.
omg, why do u do this to me? you know its just so tempting u know, when u speak to me oh-so-sweetly giving that so-sweet-im-getting-diabetes smile of urs, when all i know without a doubt that u mean nothing to it. it just pains me. argh, and why do i sound like im going to die because of this. its just a setback. i know better, i've been thru worse, many more times. failure is not an option, but a regularity. disgusts.
cheers.
yk ranted at 8:13 am!
on Sunday, October 09, 2005
You Could Have It So Much Better.
If, you just said,
what i wanted to hear,
what i hoped you'd feel,
and help not me,
but us.
cheers.
yk ranted at 2:00 am!
on Thursday, October 06, 2005
what an odd day. woke up late so decided not to go for the morning lectures. 2pm headed to school for blood pract. got off the bus walked towards the science lecture theatres then suddenly thought abt that time make cookies and that amrit fella. oh yea, hes a funny guy and all.
turned round the corner of LT27 heading towards frontier and i saw amrit. said hi. wow, what a coincidence! so i thought to myself. skally get to see __e also.
walked up 2 flights of the stairs next to frontier. saw bryan and evelyn and... __e! wah lao chao taiko la, twice already. i must be a mind reader.
not bad sia. first thing come to sch get to see chiobu. too bad this is an odd chiobu. very odd. but it is never time to give up. sheesh. just gotta keep up a pretense long enuff for anything to work. i dont want it to fail, and pls dont write it off so soon. it takes time, i dont believe that u can just "feel" the connection immediately after knowing a person. it takes time. it takes time.
Rolling Stones - Time is on my side
Time is on my side, yes it is
Time is on my side, yes it is
Now you always say
That you want to be free
But you'll come running back (said you would baby)
You'll come running back (I said so many times before)
You'll come running back to me
Oh, time is on my side, yes it is
Time is on my side, yes it is
nice song right. but i dont thing the come running back one will work. unless magick happens, or as ying xian says, the ONE thing that will let her give u the one chance, one shot, one opportunity. To seize everything you ever wanted. One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip? You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow this opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo.
right. aiya damn gay la stupid lancet supposed to be not pain but the damn hole in my index finger is itching. cant imagine those who had to sacrifice themselves to do the bleeding time pract. 3 holes in the forearm. ouch. siying (not TH.) damn hero sia, volunteer herself to do the Rh test, in the end we ran arnd the lab with her bleeding finger and cant find the damned anti-D reagent. bled for nothing. pui.
argh. damn pissed off. why the fuck m i so suay.
oh yah, and remember the chio hc neighbour i mentioned earlier this yr? in fact late last yr also la. turns out she's tengsoon's junior. and he told me she just broke up with her bf. and tengsoon doesnt have a good impression of her now ex-bf. lol. i totally agree. he's so dicky la, doesnt deserve her anw. pui.
time to go watch lost soon.
cheers!
yk ranted at 9:03 pm!
on Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Factor X will become the prothrombin activator through extrinsic and intrinsic pathways. extrinsic by the damaged blood vessels and all, faster pathway, with tissue factors activating factor VII to VIIa, and that, with Ca2+ will change X to Xa, and Xa will become da factor. Intrinsic factor is XII activated which activates XI which activates IX which then together with factor XIII and Ca2+ to change X to Xa. classic hemophilia (tsar nicholas's son) is usually caused by a deficiency in factor XIII, which is a genetic disease that Queen Victoria passed down the bloodlines of European Royalty (which of ourse intermarried and all), affecting only males like the Tsar's son.
if u ask me, it was just a whole load of tosh.
tosh also impedes current progression of the ultimate destiny plan. but nobody said one cant try right? even in the future. postpone it long long long time later. pui. disgusting. and u rli sud be less dao and at least try to know me better if thats the case.
factor X is goanna give it to ya.
cheers.
yk ranted at 6:51 pm!
on Tuesday, October 04, 2005
there is a big self proclaimed gorilla sitting next to me called guan hong. he likes it.
i admit, hes kinda queer. zz.
stupid la, what purines and pyrimidies synthesis. understandable la, but the fucking slides are so disorganised i cant find whatever pathway pathway on the fucking notes. ccb sia.
guan hong just pointed out to me some openly flirting peoples in lecture. like that daryl and some guy. daryl is a unisex name. haiya, doesnt matter la, lect is always distracting when ur sitting at the back. u can just see the chiobus left and right and then forget abt the lecturerer liaos. hmm and now he's decided to go into purine biosynthesis.
no doubt, im still completely sian diaoed. for reasons that were mentioned before. and add the very very confusing lecture im having now it just makes it all doubly sian diao.
ok so turns out that purines and pyramidines have similar pathways. they come down from whatever they are made of and form first the oxyribose nucleic acid. then use RR to make it into deoxyribose. exact ATCGU pathways very konfusingh. it would make even the smartest (vin)singh konfusingh-ed. hurhurhur.
metabolism. meta-something. reminds me of that bitch that took us for ONE fucking gp lesson and kao peh so mmuch and kope my phone. good one kw, go tell that bitch to metacognit her cheebye sia.
Disorders of purine metabolism.
- GOUT, (primary hyperuricemia, excess production of uric acid and precursors. increased levels of uric acid in serum and urine. deposition of sodium urate crystals in joints - arthritis, urinary tract/kidneys - renal failure.)
- then theres all ur wierd mutations of the synthetase and whatever-ase that will spoil ur pathways, like salvage or whatever and that will cause major fuckups.
- also got one that increase PRPP level that can lead to gout.
- another disporder of purine metabolism is the condition whereby medical students without bio backgrounds start to go crazy. caused by excess info of whatever is happening in lecture.
omg knn wtf is a xanthanine!?!?!?!?!? looks like the planet where predator comes from. maybe thats where TH's predator pussy comes from. now he's talking abt gene therapy. can u use gene therapy to repair predator pussies, cos adenosine deaminase deficiency doesnt seem to be very nice to treat. making predator pussies become normal nice smelling miaos is a greater good that will bring about world peace.
adenosine deaminase turns out, is, acutally. ADA. ooo, so now i know where exactly you are going to be a PC shimon. its ADA. what shoot down aeroplane, rubbish! ur just killing some stupid enzymes!
ok i think this gay lecture is abt to end. time to go take a break while the next lecture starts. and now turns out that the biochem lect is ended too soon. haish. so just had a super stupid 1 half hr break and now its cardio-physiology thingie. the ECG looks damn retarded. it makes anyone look retarded, just to rephrase. pui!
but i think i might just like this physio lecturer. some Prof Hooi i think. he is insisting that we DONT write anything down and just sit down and listen to all his
but on a serious note, yuck, i rli think _______e is daoing me. why sia. why do this to me. argh. cant we just talk it out instead of leaving me in the dark right? dialouge works. we've all got to be honest. i would too. but this isnt working out the way i want it to. shit lah. at times i just think that i should just steal her away for a moment and just talk. honestly. and sincerely. cos welled up emotions make for a person that cannot concentrate on his work. right.
ahaha.
i wonder, why is the lecturer going on and on abt PHILOSOPHICAL aspects of the heart like some stupid leonardo da vinci or whoever the fuck has to say abt hearts and why? isnt it like PHYSIOLOGY now instead of PHILOSOPHY. hurhur, get it?
hmmm heart attack is a major cause of death, only seconded by cancer. wow, scary sia, maybe we SHOULD cut down on all those cholesterol laden foods and all those sat fats or wat trans fats whatever la.
i rli like u. i will be here, waiting for u. but its only up to u to decide if u want to accept me or not.
cos if u dont, i'd be very hurt.
cheers.
yk ranted at 8:33 am!
on Monday, October 03, 2005
what a boring day. some dumb lectures in the morning, now damn free. all the way til 5 then got soma meeting.
why, oh why, are u daoing me. what have i done!? grrrr.
and why, oh why, am i so humji, why dont i dare to tell u straight in the face.
why. oh why.
life is tragic. at least mine is, its so full of shit and all that has ever happened to me is something that just came out of fate/destiny's asshole cos its just shit. nothing nice ever happened. anything nice that happened always had a bitter after taste. _______e was a nice thing that happened that is just damn shitty now.
i want to succeed in it, but i have no idea how. frits and shi did give suggestions. but u gotta admit it, they are also quite as noob as i am too, so im rli at a loss. why, _______e, why must u be so cruel to me. i know u know what i feel. sure one wat. girls just seem to have this innate 6th sense dont tell me u dont.
dont do this to me. im easily hurt.
yucks.
but here's something light (like pastry) and fun to contrast that gothic and dark mood. whatever. You Are 18 Years Old
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
cheers.
yk ranted at 3:06 pm!
on Sunday, October 02, 2005
must have been a pretty sad week, like __e was kinda dao and all, excaberated by the fact that there is so many physio this week, and blood clotting i still catch no ball. stupid factors I - IX or was itt XII whatever fuck la. i alwasy thot clotting was just the extrinsinc portion, platelates make prothrombin to thrombin and then fibrinogen to fibrin and voila! clot.
lame la, all these factors, so troublesome. just like feet muscles. so numerous and headachy compared to the hand, and yet it has limited movement. pui. so many rubbish to remeber just for that gay foot arch. every1 sud be flatfooted and downgraded and make my life easier, and every1 happier.
pui.
destiny plan wasnt too bad, it was quite good i supposed, cept that the fact that i was forced to modify my destiny plan meant that i needed to get some1 else to help me with the singing and that means that the limelight is certainly reduced. besides, seriously, whoever looks at the fella playing the guitar, no matter how much effort he put into it, during a performance. im certain i dont.
and i said stupid things i sud not have. argh. horrendous. pui.
yeaurgh. so here went another disastrous week in the campaign for __e's attn/heart whatever. ahahaha. lousie la. but as always, im here for u, but its up to u to take up my offer or not. just that i'll be very hurt if u dont.
haa haa haa. u know, i seriously wonder, how many ppl other than t17 ppl actually knows i write a blog. heh heh. thats right, nobody! i think its better to start changing this to a secret one tho, removing my name from here and wiping my hands clean. too many things in here that would throw my face away if it was ever to be known, esp like ________e affair and all. aha.
see, thats y sia, i still disagree wif that guanhong la, i doubt any1 would be so taiko and stumble onto this blog. i mean, after all, i dont know a single person from med, and those whom i know like newman and moses are like minority also, so its like, this is pretty secure. even then, even gsy and moses, doesnt know this exist.
ignorance is bliss, so's secrecy. its an exciting bliss.
lame rants from an inane mind. oh, and i have to add, lame is just underappreciated wit. wow! dont u all just agree with my feeble defense of the lousy lame jokes that comes out of this seriously underimaginative mind. imaginative only when it comes to thinking with the head other than the one that grows on ur neck and is on a superior position in relation with the rest of ur body. anterio-superiorly. hurhurhur.
oh yah, look at today's date!!! its OCTOBER 2nd! september ends liao. go and wake me up please. im serious, u're already like 2 days late liao. havent i told u to wake me up when september ends? bloody irresponsible assholes! grrr.
think its time to touch bf2.
heli needs to be revised. biochem dont.
gaming needs to be loved. u dont.
cheers.
yk ranted at 1:46 pm!
the collaborators *
i cant be fucked linking!
the photographic evidence *
lies!
the incriminating evidence *
everlasting .
depression .
melodramatic .
ORANJELAIR
-yk