on Sunday, April 24, 2005
book out during field camp. shiok arh. just went for the medi essay test. very guai lan qns. haha.
met the force last nite. quite fun catching up. cya again nxt week gays. and may the FORCE be with u.
episode 3 is coming yay!
and so's my last 4 nites of field camp. yeaurgh. cya fellas, booking in soon.
yk ranted at 6:28 pm!
on Tuesday, April 19, 2005
day off!
wahahaha.
day off to go back cj get letter from ms lim, write essay and get my resume done for sunday's interview/essay test.
stupid fucker armskote sgt chaocheebye 2ic only said we can book out after we drew arms u niaoing bastard mofo fuck! __ -_- __
bahx. booking in soon. haix. haf fun fellas.
cheers
yk ranted at 3:33 pm!
on Sunday, April 17, 2005
this is supposed to be my last bookout. then i will be confined for 2 weeks. how sad. but hey, i will get to book out during field camp muahahaha. in fact for one, maybe two if PS will be nice, days for the medicine interview! damn happy sia, i was starting to get worried that i wont be able to make the shortlist. strangely i got the medicine shortlist but not the law one. bah. whatever sia, but hopefully at my expense vinsingh will become a lawyer. sounds good to me.
but that is if only i get the place in medicine at all. from what i gather very few make it past the interviews/essay/medical screening. oh well, a shortlist is hope. and hope might bring promise to fulfilment.
but at the end of it all, i guess i will be quite welfare considering i can bookout every single week, and have not a single confinement. hope i wont be as suay as my platoonmate who just got 3 minors/extras for losing his bolt pin. 1206 + confinement. what a happy gay.
funnily im quite down also, maybe becos of what is happening to me. (duh) it almost feels that people who seem to be so close to u just forsakes u now, for reasons u will never know. its like, just barely a couple of weeks ago i felt like we were almost brothers n sisters and then now im feeling like, hey, do i even know u now? they say time heals. i say it destroys.
its like the isolation in the camp destroyed our realtionship. but for some strange reason i feel like im at fault. like suddenly i have changed into a dislikable person and all and all those shit stuff. bloody hell im too sensitive. wahahahas.
fuck it lars. i'll go back to my Jenner. she'll love me for the next 2 months at least. someone reliable. =)
im booking in soon. so u take care ya? =)
cheers.
yk ranted at 3:33 pm!
a book out. oh yea, book out walk home saw my chio hc neighbour. damn chio sia! but of cos la, shes damn dao also. whatever lors. sian man. just rant here la. also fun. u know why? cos today is a book out day, book out, book out, while erika, pek and the rest are konfined. hee hee hee. too bad when they finish their confinement i go for field camp. and probably when i finish field camp they go for field camp. wahahas. whatever it is, still cant wait to get my new gun on monday nite. muahaha. haiz, abit sian sia, cos the last 5 months since the end of jc life have been quite hectic, tiring, saddening and utterly shit and fucked up time of my life, but nostalgic abt the od jc life. seriously lor, its like when ur in it, u dont appreciate it as much as when u are out of it. and esp the past 5 months, which has only been bad news after bad news after bad news, until of cos the bombshell fell on 21st march la. but really miss those days when u can just be in school doing whatever u want, even if ur in uniform, going town any other day u want, having those silly class things at the far east BK, usually after stupid mockery of exams on saturdays. and esp thurs nite out (j1) or fri nite out (j2) with the gays. haha. looks like each and every one of our lifestyles have changed very much, especially when every single guy i know in t17 (short of u foreigners) are in the army some how. and ones that have to be changed most is prolly me myself. ah, very funnily the playlist is playing this song now. fits what i just wrote ya? what a coincidence. Greenday - Good Riddance Its something unpredictable, maybe its just a crossroads at this point of my life now, but its really a very shitty way to put it. indeed, with the passing of my dad, i can really say that my old life has ended, and i've just transisted to another part of my life. cant blame me, i have shitty karma. i lead a lousy life, lousy love life, lousy sex life and i have no life. ooo i miss my ipod. and my hamsters are back! good and bad la, cos good is that still can play with th and thf now, but bad is the reason why they are back. oh well, life doesnt treat me as well as it should so far, but who can i blame? give me someone to blame and i whack him to a bloody pulp. ok la, go liao. need to catch some sleep. sayonara u biscots! cheers.
on Saturday, April 09, 2005
very happy to get out of camp. strangely when im out of camp army looks fun but when ur in it, its shit. whatever la, but all i can say is that army takes too much of my time away, but then its starting to get rather fun in good ol' charlie platoon 2.
our 2ic is very nice to us, giving us the good breaks and good stuff. just that some idiots in the other platoons take him for granted and piss him off. like that outfield camo lesson. grrr. pumping in SBO rifle and helm isnt exactly a very fun thing to do esp when u have just finished an outfield training.
and since im blogging now, its abt bigh time to bitch also. fucking hell, cant stand some platoon fellas. and some are common enemies of section 3 (the elite section which is my section) like that CBK (cow beh kia, cheebye kia, whatever la). knn sia, always act so pro and garang and all when hes just a bloody wayang king with a fucked up attitude.
u sucker, ur peer appraisal will suck high shit man.
and some bloody pricks are so damn hao lian sia. like this bugger from section 4 la. grrr. always act so pro, even worse than CBK and have this really obnoxious nigh high attitude. sheesh, and to think shiang told me that that fella is quite a nice guy.
indeed. u can nv judge a person unless u bloody see him man. wahahahas.
and of cos la, the 3 chao keng idiots. and esp the one that can march for shit and make us hentak kaki/berenti/etc etc so many times. and that utterly queer shit i cant even begin where to start bitching abt sia. so fucking wierd.
but as i said, section 3 is elite section. duh. in fact, for the last few batches the coy best comes from charlie 2 section 3. and occasionaly school best also. muahahaha.
cant wait to get my new wife. she's tentaively named c78. can u guess who she is? hee hee hee. shes damn chio 1 lor i tell u.
dont talk abt army liao la. book out must act like civilian. cant stand it when im walking arnd in that ugly number 4 and then have to stick by all these strange rules. its as if even when u book out the regimentation still sticks. glad im in civvies now. heh.
quite happy. and yall sud be happy for me. cos i finally got something to be slightly happy abt amid all these gloomy times. ive been accepted into smu liao! oh yea oh yea oh yea. dbl degree econs/accounting there. muahahaha. but dunno la, i've got up to june 6th to accept the offer, so i've got plenty of time to wait for nus to offer me a place. see if tyco get into med sch la~
Another turning point a fork stuck in the road,
Time grabs u by the wrist directs u where to go.
So make the best of this task and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time
Its something unpredictable,
but in the end that's right,
I hope u had the time of ur life.
So take the photographs and still frames in ur mind,
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
Tattoos and memories and dead skin on trial.
For what its worth, it was worth all the while.
but in the end that's right,
I hope u had the time of ur life.
yk ranted at 4:01 pm!
on Sunday, April 03, 2005
finally a bookout that is normal. singing every's favourite army song. great. something that is quite a fun thing to do aft all those shit i suffered thru over the past few weeks.
lets just say im extremely thankful to yall who stoody by me during my toughest times yet. honestly without yall i guess i'd ahve crumbled into nothingness and just died. love yall who are my frens, and thank yall who came by to the wake. =)
booking in on that monday wasnt exactly very wonderful, especially when u realise that u dont have a father now. ok, that thot rli sucks. its like, i nv really expected any of these shit to happen. im like, what the fuck? 5 months was all it take to take my dad's life. short it may seem for a cancer patient but it was the longest and shittiest 5 months i ever had.
hopefully all these bad karma i burned is enuff to prevent any of yall to suffer any of the shit i had to go thru then. esp to the force, cla, ed, shee... ...
and then booking in wasnt exactly a fun thing to do.
wanted to do my best for the training and stuff. but fucking suay lah. its like, for the 2.4km categorisation run i tried to pia and do my best, get <12 min and all, and when i thot i was going to do it, cos i did a 1.45 1st round and still going even faster on the 2nd and all, some fucker in front of me block and i tripped and twisted my ankle. like totally gone. then went MO without a flu and came out of it nursing one.
and the fact that when no1 picks up the fone when u call, or dont reply when u send, the saikang that u do is like shit. i agree wif u vince, cos when that kind of shit happens, u just feel like breaking down into tiny pieces and cease to exist. i felt cut off from the world i knew. family and friends just suddenly seemed so distant, so alien, so... ... dao.
ok i understand, or at least try to, that 930 isnt exactly a great time to call ppl as its quite early in the nite, but hey, for us enlistees, its lights out in an hours time! fuck sia. and thats y ppl who are lazy to sms usually make very sad goodfrens. if u catch my drift ya? i somehow have the fortune/misfortune to have many close frens who are usually lazy to reply smses.
frustating. cut off. isolated. a l o n e.
ok la, i think im just suffering from a gay of a malay syndrome but gotta snap out of it. must snap out of it. no choice. argh. army is driving me nuts. its depriving me of my 2 most impt things in life. family and friends. oh! fellas! just pick up the phone or reply the sms and keep us all fucked up enlistees happy. haix.
im a crazed person with a real m16. be wary.
oh well, im going back to holiday camp now. gotta be gone now.
sleep, sweet!
yk ranted at 5:38 pm!
the collaborators *
i cant be fucked linking!
the photographic evidence *
lies!
the incriminating evidence *
everlasting .
depression .
melodramatic .
ORANJELAIR
-yk