on Sunday, October 31, 2004
rejected. interesting word to use. very interesting. describes alot. describes how useless and lousy i am. describes how luckless i have been. describes how the next 2 years at least will be so damned lonely, boring, and...
and...
loveless.
can i strike out again? or will i fall into an endless trap of hurt, self pity and reculse as i did before? perhaps so. this is indeed, a bleak day.
argh. leave u ppl here now. cheers. i hope.
yk ranted at 8:31 pm!
on Thursday, October 28, 2004
well, some food for thought here, was thinking of nonsense on the bus home from gleneagles today, as i always do. stoning and thinking of nonsense on the long bus journeys, mind saturated with trance music and porous with thoughts. unless of cos sum1 smses me and it breaks the rythm. breaking the flooow! hahahaha
here goes, remembered from somewhere someone was saying along the lines of "dont do this thing cos it irks people for no reason". while i may be taking it out of context (konteks for shimon) here, but i was intrigued about the no reason part. do we do things for no reason? do we slam anyone, criticise them in the harshest manner regardless of the outcome and consequences, making scathing remarks against friends, for no reason? bloody hell, if it has to come to the point of making scalding comments against friends, imo theres gotta be a damned good reason.
which brings me to this point, i believe that everything and anything that happens out of consequence of our or anyone's actions, or the actions of an individual, occurs for a reason. and the reason is you! ok of cos not, but the point is, there is a reason for something that we as logical and rational or irrational humans do, no matter how trivial it is.
simply put, we do things because we are compelled to do so by the many facated issues we are facing. take me for example. i chose to do what pierced my conscience the most, and i will regret what i have done, simply because it meant defending and voicing out my opinions about a very close friend of mine. shit happens, and they too, happen for a reason.
just think about it, even trivial things such as the nonsense we face everyday, like pek smacking yyg oh-so-deservedly cos yyg is a gay critic, for "no reason", is actually filled with reasons overwhelming imo. its like, to sate his boredom, for example. and aint that a damned good reason. hmmm.
of course, the greatest irony has yet to come now. conversely, i also believe that life itself, be in human or animal or plant, happens for no reason, and has no purpose at all. humans, especially. im pretty sure the universe will function very well without the little quirk called life on planet Earth, and also, extrapolating on that, life and ecology would pretty much continue on healthily, and in fact, much better off, without us humans existing at all.
perhaps agent smith is right after all. funny how that pro-green groupt's advert on national geographic said that while life can continue without us, we exist for this reason to protect life as guardians of our island of life. pui! i think we are a huge huge virus to the planet but since we're here, lets just make the better of it ya?
hence, since i believe that life and our existence has no reason, and yet all our actions and consequesce of our compulsions occur for reasons, aint it just ironic? yes, it might even be oxymoronic, but if one ponders upon it, you may see light to be shone on this interesting question i have posed here.
so, do you think all things happen for a reason? i do. many of which that i partake involves the defense of what i view as justice. but always remember, all you evangelists, extremists, misfits oh-so-holy people, and riffraff, justice is swift, and she will punish those who fail her little tests in life. run as u may, she will find you, and punish you. only hope the retribution wont be harder than the one who suffered from the consequence of your actions.
and then i look out of the window, its courts, gotta stop. thoughts go off. poof. hence the reason for this blog. solidifying my thoughts in cyberspace, my little niche where what i say cannot be scrutinized and used against me, and i can do whatever the fuck i want! hahahahah! =P
slept fast fast, after all just sent dad into the operating theatre. really wierd, and my moms so worried she broke down n cried. broke down? call the repairman. went to sleep. turn on comp. see stuffs.
go back gleneagles at 7, and hes out of the op room. pretty fast. good doc. ex head of nuh urology dept, good for you. went without a hitch, much relieved now.
bloody tired. just goanna doze off. going back gleneagles early tmr then go sch to mug. cya kids. cheers. its the OC now.
yk ranted at 9:51 pm!
on Wednesday, October 27, 2004
oh fuck it. guess what happened today. i was crossing the overhead bridge, coming down the stairs on it. then i saw this chiobu walking on the side of the road so i peeked out on the side of the stairs. didnt crane over to see, just glanced over. and then whoops! i feel down 3 steps and sprained my ankle. great way to end the day out. bleah!
wonderful, so im nursing this huge sprain and a limp walking arnd at all, and tomorrow im having a real busy day. like having to go to sch early in the day for chem, afternoon chiong to gleneagles 2 send off my dad into the op theatre, and then prolly head back to town to cut hair wif shimon and maybe dinner wif the gays, and then go back gleneagles.
lots of walking. lots of pain. yeaurgh.
and no chance to see the sinseh to make it right until the day after. oh woe befall me right before the day where i forsee plenty of walking around. fuckit, what luck! heh. just found out yest that mail takes 3 days to deliver from fritties. ah hell, nowonder lah, make me so worried and tense waiting for a reply from __a__ then now i just counted its barely the 5th day since it was posted.
yawnx. feet aint feeling too good, there's the pract tmr, means a pretty long stand up period, doing the shitty qualitative analysis. hmm revise the eqns. yes yes add KI test for oxidising agent. add manganate(VI) test for reducing agent. add conc HCl test for Pb2+. add Pb or Ag NO3 to test for halides.
test after test after test i have to remember, for the damned QA. i just hope my 1337 5k1LLz will be still around to ensure that i get a 45/50 just like the prelims. then i can say i have pWn3d j00! hohohoho! heard jsut now from a few sources, abt the pract. so if u see this ur lucky! first up, prepare for a dibasic acid neutralisation with 2 indicators. maybe only, not too sure, it might be just a planning qn. might be redox titration involving iodine. kinetics will be out, not enthalpy.
just speculations i heard, reliable enuff cos its my fren who got her source from rj n hc i think, and it is noted that their spotting prowesses are second to none. *shrugz* lets hope for the best shall we. quick revision. if dounbling conc of reactant yields a doubling of the initial rate of rxn, its 1st order. if dbling yields a fourfold increase, its 2nd order. if no increase, zero order. with respect to the reactant.
or, on the otherhand, if V x t is constant, 1st order. if Vsq x t is constant, then its 2nd order. that is because since rate proportionate to 1/t, and since reactant proportionate to rate, therefore if Vt constant, then 1st order. aiya, heck. hahaha. just glad that theres not such thing as electrochem qn. phew personally im sick of seeing batteries and wires and voltmeters.
5 flights of stairs to the chem labs, add a limp to that. pain. worse part: she aint that chio anyway! aaaarrgh!
cheers.
yk ranted at 9:01 pm!
on Tuesday, October 26, 2004
a question, have you ever heard of kidney cancer? i know i certainly dont, and i dont even have an idea how it starts anyways, but that is the stuff my dad's diagnosed with. bleah, what strangeness. all started with a simple visit to the polyclinic for stomach bloatedness and pain, then admitted to NUH for a bunch of silly tests such as a complete blood test and CT scans which took 3 days of queuing, simply because it was suspected liver cancer, which is unfortunately is a terminal illness.
when the scans were done it wasnt the liver that was enlarged and pressing onto the stomach. its the kidneys! and the right kidney was swollen to over twice its size. wow, aint that a big piece of shit. read up on the medical encyclopaedia at home, turns out that there are 2 kinds i think, one is cancer of the urinary tract, which is very bad, and the other is the cancer of the kidney itself. rare cases, it is stated. good news, i think, is that it is not of the urinary tract. aint too bad.
going into gleneagles on thurs, op in the afternoon. pray it all goes well, after all private hospitals are profit motivated so they better do a good job to keep our demand there. heh!
tried to mug chem today. and so i did, and so i shall continue. i will speak to you all soon. cheers.
yk ranted at 5:58 pm!
on Monday, October 25, 2004
pract today, aint too bad, didnt think i screwed it up that bad, so maybe i wud get a A grade for it? haha certainly hope so, after all, im not taking chances, so lets do the mugging procedure. problem is, i cant seem to start. so now im here blogging n chatting on msn wif cherie at e same time. yawnx.
aft pract go makan, cos the motherfucks decide to keep us quarantined incommunicado at the audi ext from the time we ended to abt like, 1 pm. so im stuck in the hall ext doing group 2 chemistry n listening to anjunabeats. affectionately known to gay andrew as "hello". uneducated fool uninitiated in the goodness of electronica. at least he likes jazz, so he aint that a barbarian.
makan kfc. long time nv eat kfc, so the fattiness and juicines, oh man its so sinful but so damn good. remembered last time got this wierd guy dressing up as a santa claus and then holding this placard that said "peace on earth for chickens! boycott kfc."
what a big llama. chickens are domesticated for us to eat, so doesnt matter how they are slaughtered as long as it short of torturing them to death. cos tortured livestock dont taste as good and bad tasting food is sacrilege! haha decide on that my fellow voters.
speaking of voters, the big day where the world's fates are decided. at least our fates for the next 4 or issit 5 years. im having the european mentality, that is, anyone is definitely better than the huge airhead george w bush. so if im american i wud vote kerry. bloody hell envy these ang moh kao sey, they vote is like more powerful than a vote here. heh. honestly, even fritter ROC at the oval office wud be better than a unilateral, foolish, stupid and generally an inept president that them poor fags have now.
bah cherie just raped me in minesweeper. now u owe me a few renqings cos i lose to u lor! damn sian, gotta mug soon otherwise i can kiss those As goodbye. i aim, i see, i think i might get AAAB if i keep up at a higher rate of muggerism. but dunno y a lvls start so early this yr. thot it always started mid or late nov this yr v guai lan. but start early end early, what are we to complain right. so lets get on with it and i can undertake my holiday plans. muahaha!
once again, blessed path, warriors! cheers
yk ranted at 9:32 pm!
on Saturday, October 23, 2004
ah, i think i might just see the light at the end of the fucked up tunnel that was the fucked up ness of last week. oh well, whatever it is, and however it may be fucked up, its over, and i dont want to relive it again. bleah! now, muster up the power, determination and prowess that makes me, me, and get down to mugging.
mugger attack! ahh!
figured out the idiotic ns fiasco, turned out that im not enlisting in december. in fact, i get to choose! called the morons at cmpb yesterday, and it seems that their writing skills need a revamping. what the letter meant that, they have already enlisted me on 11/12/2004 which sucks of cos. but since im not yet 18 on that day, i get to choose if i want to go in early in december, or wait till im 18.
my answer is simply, obviously, wait lah duh! comeon, i want christmas, and my bday at home. not at tekong. so there mofos! hahaha the greatest irony is that among us late decemberians that comprises of me shimon and vinsingh, only vin has got more than silver for napfa. thus, me n shishi have to go for physical training, in otherwords, enlisting 4 weeks earlier than those of the same bmt batch as us.
incidently, we all got the january bmt batch, but because me n shishi failed napfa, we have to enlist in 11/12/2004, but since we're not 18, we can go in in march! however, vince beign 18 already on jan 8th, has no such luxury of choice!
of cos, i think he doesnt mind going in in jan, but so there, the irony is that napfa failures get to go later. heh heh heh. funny sey.
wow today i think i seem to be blessed, cos going to raffles city to mug wif fritters at the usual bk spot that time right, saw this chio looking eileen-lookalike (not snyg, the 1st 3 mnths 1) on e bus. not too bad, and then at bk that time got this damn chio girl that looks like a cross between tsm and jan lee. well, according to fritters that is. 8/10! then on the 961 home saw this damn cute looking j1 sa girl. cool!
this might be a glimpse of whats to come. a upturning of luck, emotions, and things to come. in otherwords, bad karma burned last week, good ones come. life's all abt balance, so i'll gladly take the good fortune now. *smilex*
really want the week to turn better. cant wait for the good things that may come. goanna stone for awhile. mug tmr, gotta ponder on what happened the past week, and just think how that experience with misunderstandings would make me less of a big dick next time.
cheers all.
yk ranted at 9:24 pm!
on Thursday, October 21, 2004
furthur misunderstandings in school, between friends esp, aint making ur record breaking fucked up week any better. and as if it isnt turning for the worse, i got some dumb letter that aint an enlistment letter saying "u are schduled for enlistment on 11/12/2004 (fuck u i want my christmas) but since u are under 18 we are letting u volunteer early" so wtf does it mean? help me. problems come in torrents, im drowning. save me.
m y l i f e h a s r e a c h e d r o c k b o t t o m
s a v e m e i f i t s t h e l a s t t h i n g u d o
cheers, i hope.
yk ranted at 10:26 pm!
on Wednesday, October 20, 2004
its been awhile my dear frens, and all i can say is this. its been a real fucked up week so far since last thursday. aint too great, it was a huge torrent of negative feelings, bringing me up and down with the rising and falling of the hour hand of the clock, much as the proverbial "emotional roller coaster". it just felt ultra uber wierd, the surreality and unreal-ness of shit that happens in the past week so far. one problem comes with it another problem, with one solution croping up a huge amount of problems.
let us just start off with grad day. wasnt too bad at first, snapping pictures merrily with fatty's pek's and fritter's camera and all, but having this sinking feeling deep inside which have been festering for the better part of the last month since prelims. this sinking feeling is one of myself chiding myself for not doing much abt the one whom i love so dearly.
isnt it ironic, there is somebody out there whom u love and care for so much, and yet when u discovered that u really love her so, u just sorta hide, ignoring the fact of the truth of your feelings, fearing that the bad experiences of the past catching up on u, afraid that the harsh reality and feelings of rejection would just kill u mentally and physically and bust ur chances at the coming a levels. i for one, have too many bad experiences to share, and i for sure dont want that shit to happen again. but regret catches up on u eventually, catching u in that little hiding hole u created for urself, and that is what im feeling right now. regret. pangs of hurt and pain coming down in torrents, all the while grad ceremony was going thru.
got nyaa silver award, testimonial and other result slips on that day. surprisingly i got B for current affairs instead of the usual A. is that an omen? hope not, cos fuck it if i screw up my a levels. bad experiences catching up? another one here, terrible o lvl results that i do not want repeated for the a's. i cant imagine myself getting screwed up for a levels, and yet at the same time i have just lost the drive to mug hard and succeed. its like, the fire has run out, i cant seem to get back to studying. its almost like u desire it so much and yet lack the determination to do so. aint that sucky? trying to mug. ha what a joke.
went out with the class after that, went off to town to paint the town red, we hope, and went for sakae, after which we went to play lan for ahile and the shitty lan shop on the top floor. thanx to somebody for being so bloody insensitive abt some issues i have described before abt __a__ you totally screwed up my day. friday, grad day, was a fucked up day. felt down the whole day.
its like the culmination of all things gone bad. the aforementioned problems plague-ing me for a really long time, and then the realization that poof, u are no longer a school going student anymore. i must have mentioned this like a dozen times but really, when the day comes u feel totally wierd. all the friends u haf known as your classmates just seem to be slowly drifting away, slowly, but surely, as our paths diverge into the great unknown of life. these past few days only served to accentuate that. knowing that u will soon be leaving ur friends forever to go into the army camp/tekong/university/work just dont really make ur day esp brighter esp with the torrents of crazy probelms i felt.
and then the last straw came when i thought, on that same friday night, that i might haf accidently backstabbed my good freind on accident, but even if its an accident, i still feel real bad abt it. its like this, he told me a v impt thing, and its like, i will not speak of it to any1 else. yes of cos. i pride myself on being able to carry a secret to the grave, and i shall do that again, until one fine day this other guy comes arnd with super scathing remarks against my this good fren and apparently it has to do wmthn with the secret he told me lah.
so of cos, to defend his good name, after all it is social suicide in my opinion when the king of gossip (the guy who made the super scathing remarks) knows of the untruth, which goes like, 'walao ppl got gf liao still want to jio other girls so bloody shitty etc etc etc'. cannot stand it already, so i said smthn along the lines of oh fuck u ______ give _____ a break alright? hes already had his fair share of problems already. he has already (the v impt thing). so u get the idea?
but misunderstandings still hurt, and that night, thinking that i have just stabbed him in the back cos he found out that the secret aint too secret anymore, even if its for a good reason, i still think it sux. so i'd be a sulking me and feeling all so fucked up walking from cini to wheelock, but thanx alot to chow, trying her best to cheer me up. good to know there'll be sum1 who will hear me out. thanx!
so felt slightly better went out to nydc for more eats, sinful chocolaty stuff they haf there. had jedi mudster there. mmmmm, and with that, a resolution to finally break the silence and the ice and just write to __a__ anyhows, finally telling her how i feel abt it and all, with a few extra tips from vinsingh on how to make it extra nice. hmmm good.
wkend felt real wierd, thinking abt wat to write. so i did in the end, a whole 4 pages long and taking me over 3 hours to write it out. felt real good abt that, and on monday decided to go borders after studying with the gays in sch first to buy nice nice paper. very nice paper and envelops to write on, nevermind the cost cos the value added to it would make it priceless.
over the weekend, a friend called me from overseas abt this real shitty problem hes having over there. a situation as described here. three of his good friends are friends with each other, and two of them are attached to each other, although apparently there are cracks in their relationship already and my friend has been predicting that it wont last long, the inevitable break up would come soon. but alas, one day he found the third guy making out with the girl in school in the morning, and at that moment, she did not yet, to my friend's knowledge, break up with her bf yet, and yet shes with this guy, who is also my friend and her bf's good friend.
so he was telling me abt this dilemma, when the bf was also one of his best buds from pri sch, and because he wasnt too sure if they broke up already and yet shes seeing his other friend. its almsot like, hey im going out with my best friend's girlfriend. gosh that sux larh. soon after my friend discovered that they broke up anyways, and he suspects that the third guy has a hand in accerlerating the destruction of the relationship. its like so damned fast, cos only the week before they original couple seemed to be doing pretty well on the outside, on the path to recovery when this "third party" just came in to wreck things up, and in my friends opinion that is very very very dicky of the "thrid party" especially when the third party is like on very good terms with the bf! and at the same time with my friend also. so its like, kinda fucked up larh.
he also added that this third guy is much like a cassanova in a way, hardly spending any of his days as a single person. oh well, in my opinion, bloody hell cant u just stay single for a while? u dont haf to go wreck up soembody else's relationship like that right? even if the girl is after all willing and all, think abt the guy, her ex-bf now, think abt how fucked up he's going to feel. and the saddest fact is that they all are having a major exam soon over there in e uk, and this shit is just going to kill the bf esp when he found out all by himself that his gf is seeing someone else, in fact his good friend, on the sly.
i was him, i would have just went to punch the third guy straight in the face. straight in the face a big punch to knock him out of his bloody dickiness. argh. this sux la, in my opinion, because i know "you only get what you give" and thus, i will never steal anyone else's gf even if their relationship is indeed on the rocks and i can do like so much as to accelerate the problem and wreck them up oh so easily to make sure things turn out the way i want it to. think the bf is going to be like so damned fucked up now, hope it doesnt destroy his life altogether. from what i gather from my friend its like he still loves and cares for her very much, and im pretty sure that having ur good friend to steal her right under your nose isnt doing much to ur overall self confidence and esteem esp in trying times such as their examination period.
oh wow, what can i say, what a big fucking dick in my opinion. bleaaaaah, if there were respect for that stealor at all, my respect for him wud haf dipped down big big time. of cos, damn fortunate it aint happening anywhere near me, i will feel equally fucked up since every member of that love triangle is pretty close to my friend.
oh fuck, just had news that my dad is hospitalised for some shit liver problem. fuck this la, of all times, i think my life has just taken the downturn. the only respite i can get from all this shit, esp the lack of study, is that my letter to her just finds it way not to just her mailbox, but to her heart as well, so that i can just be happy making her feel happy, making her feel beautiful and making her feel loved.
once again, blessed path, warriors, cheers. go dl gundam seed destiny 2. its nice.
yk ranted at 11:42 am!
on Wednesday, October 13, 2004
oh fuck didnt do any work at all and i just feel perfectly fine. is there anythign that is fucking wrong with me? ah fuck it la just slack off today. the vj prelim physics is a great turn off. argh. whole afternoon spent in class wif vince chow n drew and then i just stared at them doing working occasionally stepping in to help (hopefully) chows wif e maths. but fuck la my maths aint that good neither. so fuck this shit yo.
ask me who wud i like to kill this instant now it would be that highly irritating ahneh couple that always hangs out at the grandstand on our staircase. oh fuck them they are like this close to the ugliness known as the UC, or *clack clack* penguiness. but trust me they are really UC one step behind and if u ask me, i think they are actually vagabonds who live on the grandstand! reach sch see them leave sch at 6 still see them. yeaurgh.
dunno y but they piss the hell out of me and the rest of t17. walk past them they always give that why-the-fuck-are-u-staring-at-us look when we are quite put off by their obnoxious and oh so disgusting acts of passion in school. excuse me even the UC goes to the sci labs to make out can u choose somewhere else other than the quite exposed grandstand! thank goodness its the last week of sch already u retards can go n make out for all i care now bleah.
yuck!
just need to let off some steam. Cheers, happy mugging. i just lost the joy in mugging spare me the torture.
yk ranted at 10:23 pm!
on Tuesday, October 12, 2004
finally, today got to watch the ladykillers, and thank god i spent only $6.50 on it. it was so fucking stupid and lousy larh! ok, great acting aside, the jokes were too subtle and not easy to comprehend so it took me like a while to catch them. and for those lazier ppl like pek and yyg they couldnt even be bothered to decipher it and pek just slept lol! but u haf to admit, tom hanks is in a class of his own. he acts so damned good he fits into any role he plays. that's what make him a true star material.
of cos, as pek suggested, this movie sucked cos of another reason. all the people in the show are either big, fat, black or ugly, so hes turned off. lol! so sad dont haf any1 as chio as TH inside right? well, thats just sad la, cant be helped.
if you plan to watch it, remember to catch the huge ironies in the show. right from the start til the end and even the entire story itself is one huge irony. go see it, to believe it. the ending was just so lame tho, all 5 prepetrators died so stupidly. oh well, dumb fucks worthy of the title Fritter ROC.
reach home so damned fucking tired, couldnt believe it man, so slept from 7-9 and then went to do TJC maths prelims paper 2. think i did OK, still remembered many of the probs and stats shit, and didnt stumble for the pure maths with the exception of vectors and complex no.s. well, duh, isnt that where every1 stumbles? hope so, then at least every1 can fail with me. finally i see the merit and beauty of the jermaine plan to get As but making every1 slack so that even his supposedly poor marks can become As. dont worry jer, u are a smart dick so go get them muahaha.
think many schools ended their exams today. lots of ny and st nix ppl at cini today. cool sia, got a few of them qutie chio one. muahahaha! so the slew of qns shall come forth. onwards to a ny girl and ask "hey u know eileen? (snyg)" or to any convent girl with a loose belt and "hey are u pregnant?" and to cgs girls and say "hey do u know sophie? (shimon's fetish)" haha lame qns borne out of boredom and silliness.
fucking sian, tmr got rehearsal for the grad ceremony. in otherwords, having to sit next to the terrorist argharghargh! that sux. i want to go back to class to do my own work! -_-"
enuff rants for the day, haf fun mugging cheers!
yk ranted at 11:34 pm!
on Monday, October 11, 2004
1st day of the last wk of sch. how encouraging. but it doesnt feel any different from any other day, with the exception of the fucking trenmendous amt of pressure. haiz will we all just buckle under it and become souless lifeless shells of muggers whose past glory days of being alive is long gone, drowned amidst the torrents of facts, facts, facts. facts suck cock fuck.
just finished aj maths paper, one econs essay and the hc prelim mcq. fucking utterly raped by the mcq paper yawnx. now i know y mdm indra asks us not to do that. its so full of shit that seems imcomprehensible! wtf man, its like super uber insensible qns that make no shit sense.
and at the same time its just so disheartening. doing so much already but at the back of my head it keeps niggling, a secret that i do want my want concious self to know, that all these, its just not enough to gurantee my grades of choice. oh fuck it. sudnt haf started so late on mugging for the prelims, hope i dont pay the hefty price for it.
its all so stressing out man, big time fits now just need to hit something. preferably a big dicky person or a huge bitch. hmm that'd do fine hohoho. maybe pek was right, just grab thf and punish her its good enuff de-stressing i'd guess. heh. but it doesnt matter, we're all going to be victims of the juggernaught of mugging, slowly but surely mowing down the last bits of our sanity and our youthful exuberence, eternally condemning us to a very surreal lifeless adult life.
that, is such a nightmare. argh.
of cos, i tell others, esp this one fren who thinks shes like totally fucked for the exams, that its never too late to start. but personally, i think im doing too little too late. i'd lower my expectations to like 2 As and be damn glad that i got it. argh. if only i could afford to fly overseas i wont be in this dipshit predicament where i have to apply for fucking competitive scholarships. look at albert salim. smart enuff and rich enuff to apply for stanford university already. omg its a fucking top ivy league place with astronomical fees that commands prolly a mid income earner singaporean's entire annual income. gosh.
i hate u rich fucks. argh. and all u bengs and silly ppl and idiots. the world is reserved for superior beings muahaha. am i turning fritterish? you decide.
Cheers, happy mugging u bitchies and dickies.
yk ranted at 11:18 pm!
on Sunday, October 10, 2004
argh just took out my ear stud put in that plastic thingy and it fucking hurts! ow yuck hope it doesnt get infected. sud haf left the bloody stud on now its hurting like mad. acutally it doesnt hurt that much but i wonder if the thin thing earstick will just fall off. if it does then sian diao liao. anyways im also depressed now cos i think i gaiend 2 kilos. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
yumyum calbee tastes good ack its oiling up my keyboard and myself too. anyways decided to stop studying liao and come blog cos i feel so fucking sian looking at physics and then econs. bleah. killer one two combo stuns me to death. anyway for all u geeks out there help me ans in e tagboard pls how do u integrate cos (lnx) yea thats it. help k! my fren asked me dat and i kinda didnt know how to do lol
back blogging and thinking and ranting. thinking abt issues. issues regarding my betterment and shit, and nthn to do with the stresses of the studying fever that's hitting us all now.
isnt it just ironic, feeling bitter all over not getting into my jc of choice sa, but ending up at crap central here at cj. feeling bitter all over, all those anger, all those recluse and holing up in a pitiful shell of self doubt and self hate, refusing to socialise as freely as i did before, only to realise that the next coming week would be the last week of school. not just the last week of jc life, but the last week of regimented school life as we knew since we were in pre primary or even whassit called? nursery or smthn. even if i was at school of choice the 2 years of fun and games and laughter and good memories would be over with the close of the next week.
boy would i be so sad over it. i cant imagine myself during graduation. would i cry? would i truly miss this place i was studying for the past 1 3/4 years and have been telling myself that i hated it? as much as i would want to hate it and get over it, after all it is a sign that i failed my o lvls anyways thats besides the point, you kinda grow to like the place and the people. yes of cos i would definitely regret not studying harder and going back to sa, but whats done is done. get it over and done with, cos in the end it ends, just like my stint here. nothing is permanent. it is like all things and the rule and law of all things natural. it is all just transient.
another dilemma here, as much as i would want to live the varsity life and totally looking forward to it, heard its damn fun and full of, ah nvm, i wouldnt really want to be there right now as it would mean the end of school as i know it and i would really miss these days. as i said before, it just isnt the same. friends part, and the constantly shuffling tutorials and lectures would only distance everyone, and the classroom life would be gone forever, into the annals of our personal life history. close friends borne out of close contact everyday in classroom would be a thing of the past and all, and it would really be a sad thing.
no matter how hard u try, friends will part, and closeness might grow into alieness. 5,10 maybe 20 years down the road, i might even barely recognise the people who i call friends today, and for all you may know i might actually dislike them by then. of cos i would pray for that to never happen but it might just be the sad truth of life. things are transient, and jc life and school life will soon come to an end. dont want it to happen, but it will. the passage of time is unstoppable and nothing us mere mortals do will even slow it down.
gosh, i will miss the uniforms, the bad canteen food, screaming teachers and silly fashion restrictions. soon, the days of zao genging schoogirls everyday during lectures or trying to figure out their bras from the back (unwittingly of cos they want to show us their colourful bras not our fault wat.) will also be gone, replaced by maturish looking people. bleah lol! even the tons of homework might be missed too! haiz. go read. =(
go n dl Gundam Seed Destiny Ep 1 kids, the raw one is out, ie unsubbed. stopped mugging for the night. hope ear hole dont get infected ^^ nites yall. Cheers to the progress of our lives.
yk ranted at 10:21 pm!
on Saturday, October 09, 2004
yesterday was bad. i meant, yesterday's mockery was really really bad. the mcq paper was bad enough and the paper 2 just sealed our fate, and the sounding of our death knell. of cos, the death knell was a mockery also after all it isnt the real thing, but its close enuff i'd like to get from courting academic death. worst part is that the fucking paper was a past year paper. june '97. yuck.
see qn, dunno how to do. see another qn, stun for life. gosh! how unprepared i was for this paper dammit. if the actual thing is like this then oops, my A is gone with the wind just like my luck in all things romantic. lol interesting comparison. anyways, that is not what i want to see 4 months down the road of life i would like to see AAAA instead of the damning "fail" for the chemistry part.
oooo gotta start mugging hard! interesting trivia here, if you girls are going to apply for medical degree in the UK or applying to oxford or cambridge, the deadline to hand up the UCAS application form is arnd this week i think. gogogo! british council! i think its the place. i'd really want to go to the UK to study any sponsors? =) banging my luck everywhere.
hee hee hee went to poke ear hole on friday with cock chows after the chemistry mockery. its a fun thing to do when you are bored people. and it doesnt hurt larh! it just feels wierd having a piece of metal in ur ear at first, needs abit of getting used to. bah, but im just worried if can wear that metal stud to sch not. maybe learn from jem but his yakult straw.
but then hor, dunno y my parents damn toolan i go poke a ear hole. comeon, its my body im abusing after all not yours so give me a break. stop all those bullshit abt what its damn gay or watever cos its not the right side its the fucking left ear. and then give me that toolan face just makes me even more ultra pissed. so today after the physics mockery (yes another one, 2 in a row) i purposely show them face and refuse to go home and went to hang arnd orchard wif the class gays pek yyg joel ed frits yx fats shimoan brian.
but then quite pissed and feeling really fucked up already cos mom was scolding me over the hp and all, and posters and vivid descriptions, by good ol' violent joel, of that ultra violent bloodfest show oldboy just dont really make my day any brighter so there, went home without watching The Exorcist with those gays.
really wanted to watch. paiseh sia for the pang seh attack! =)
so went home and had a good chat with mom n dad much later. quite pissed at first, thats y i slept for the better part of 3 hours in the afternoon with zero work done. tsk tsk tsk growing fat huh. in fact fuck sia i think i gained at least 2 or 3 kilos this few weeks. the stresses = sinful indulgences = no exercise = fatness. vincent, ur right. the day u count calories is the day you hate eating. i just love eating and thus i will never get back to couting calories. hahaha!
anyways managed to reach a concensus. wont be wearing any metal studs at home or when visiting relatives but i'll be having free reign over my aural protrusions when im out. heh at least i had half my way. thanx u cock chows that was a real fun thing to do after all you pang seh me for so long liao finally ur infection heals and can go poke extra hole. lol hope art didnt screw u too badly cos u got extra holes now. pun not intended. now now sud i make it bigger hole like wat jermaine did? hmmm.
but har, wats the point, the ear hole so small cannot put the nice big ones that look like huge spikes or wat, and i havent got a nice looking stud anyway. go shopping some time soon k cher! hahaha
watched wimbledon yesterday. very nice and funny show! i likes it alot cos kirsten dunst is damn chio. shes so chio (alright i'd concede this pic kinda sux) and well endowed, even that sports bra she was wearing doesnt stop the bodily simple harmonic motions. on her it might very well be complex harmonic motion hohoho. then got some scenes pek pointed out to me, no bra! woooot. heh heh.
and another good thing is that the jokes in the show arent the drop dead slapstick kind of stuff. its the more witty and thinking jokes. maybe that'll explain the more discreet and less laughter in the theatre unlike dodgeball that was filled with racous laughter. might be explained by the simple fact that we are all surrounded by idiots who can only take stupidity, or that we are all so stressed out only very obvious jokes make it to laughter central in the mind.
nice show anyways, and i just found out that the peter colt in Wimbledon is the doctor on the Master and Commander. u know, russell crowe's sidekick and the guy who got shot by his own soldier? fritters says he gets his reward for getting shot at by having getting laid by kirsten dunst. ok then, can i get shot at too? not fatally tho i want to enjoy the reward =)
but actually wanted to watch the Ladykillers at first but the the 7.20 show was packed and full house. fuck it why u all freaks wanna watch that we want to so get out. hmph im sulking. hahaha! i want to watch that sky captain and the world of tommorow also, but then dunno when it opens and i think only lido haf. lido sucks cos i cant sit properly there, there is so little leg room
cineleisure rox. big seats and lots of space even i can almost lie down. heh heh heh.
so there, meaningless random rantings for the day is finished. cheers. needs lucks for the a's =/
yk ranted at 11:18 pm!
on Thursday, October 07, 2004
oh what the fuck man i think im really stupid. stupid, retarded, lazy and just plain idiotic. think its just this nite but whatever, its so fucked up. im done doing 2 mcq papers and 5/7 of a maths paper and gave up. argh, whats up man, im having forced to skip one question for vj prelim physics, thats bad; and skip 2 qns for the econs aj prelims; and i wouldnt even start on the maths paper yet.
chao chee bye i think arh, my B for maths is utterly undeserved. i practically stopped at every question and went to look at the answers. for every question, and that kinda sucks. there's no such luxury as a full notes during the exams and for goodness sake its only three fucking weeks away! and im super uber unprepared. i think this a lvls is going to kill me. im screwed. perhaps jeremy u are right. i always do well for everything except for the main exam itself.
gave up doing that stupid acjc paper. my integration is horrendus, needs to do tys now. my inequalities, forgot everything i learnt during first 3 mnths. oh for goodness sake i even taught a fren in hc, who got an a for maths anyway, how to do this similar draw inequalities graph question and by all things fuckable in this fucked up world i forgot how to do it now. thanks alot man, i think i get stupider with age. and im still fucking careless as ever. get the signs and fuctions fucking right for once! argh!
before you do just that, let me die after losing my virginity and watching tonite's OC. its the only thing worth watching especially since this weekend yi tian tu long ji finishes. haiz. unlike myself, the people in OC seem to be happy, at least for the coming episode. starting abt 1 h 15 minutes later. merisa is still so chio! as chio as TH and almost as chio as g____.
failed physics s, not a surprise, but failed by 7 marks. so aint toobad. drown me in my own sorrow. the TV, here i come. last episode of apprentice. who cares abt maths now.
c h e e r s .
yk ranted at 9:40 pm!
on Wednesday, October 06, 2004
wacky day, cos its the inaugural sports "meet" for our class, so as we did last week we went toa payoh cc to play table tennis and badminton. hehe can visit the old pri sch days so smacking arnd with a badminton racquet, and sadly, the racquet is abt as old as the psle cert. and i havent replaced the grip and all for quite a pretty long time, and its all rought and peeling. then kept playing with my wierdish loose grip so guess what i have now? a bloody blister to nurse on my fucking finger and it fucking hurts!
argh, that sucks big time, but nthn compared to the great fun we had. gotta do this every week cos its a healthy thing to do. play non stop like from 230-6 and i took only a measly half hour break in bet. so legs dont hurt that much tho i jumped arnd, must be cos of all those bballing wif the gays, but then right, my forearms hurt like fuck.
and that yyg nv warm up, and suffered dire consequences as a result. as he reached out high for a high, erm, cock, he sort of twisted his shoulder. haha it was damn funny lah! dont warm up, suffer. and i wonder why didnt he jump. hmmm gorrilas dont jump i guess. aint i a great naturalist? special thanx to kingwai for booking the courts, thanx to a.j for the shuttlecocks and thanx to sc for that rojak there.
the rojak is nice, and got the you xuan mei shi want rojak champion, i think. thick black prawn paste, yum! hope that miao might taste like that? hahaha!
bought a present for mom, its her bday, and i have one thing to say, i love her lots! =) happy birthday! and i went to buy this pair of op slippers 4 her hohoho.
now its 8 plus already, i have to go n do other jc papers liao. printed alot of them, its time that i finish them and declare myself master of physics, chem, econs and maths! Blessed path, warriors! Cheers!
yk ranted at 8:13 pm!
on Tuesday, October 05, 2004
for some reason went to watch resident evil today. today's supposed to be the study afternoon after i go n zap the other jc prelim papers but then, impulse took over me and then went to watch resident evil at PS wif yyg jermaine pek shimoan. walao, that show sux big cock larh. so fucking lame story, stupid intro that absolutely confuses new watchers like me who missed RE1 and the whole thing is so action packed and so corny it becomes stupidity central.
oh please man, the action sequences and the plot is so ultra predictible and its trick of hanging the story in the air with tons of loose ends to start a new show is quite sickening and cheap. yucks! and the doggie zombies are very ugly and terence u sick shit the only boobies u see in the show are zombie ones or the very ugly looking jovovich and that's bleah! bleah bleah bleah. oh yes! i totally, like, dont like this part, this commando guy, his like, totally loserish, and try to action beydey to the other lead actress and then when u just about want to feel for him in the story and grow emotional attachment to him cos of his lame antics, the bloody dogs eat him up. wat a fucking anticlimax! aiyo! just when u start to get to know that char he dies a terrigible death. bleah.
but i feel damn guilty now leh, supposed to start mugging on monday but then i havent really gotten down to it. walao that sucks big time, and i havent even got thru the "read contents" part yet. i think fuck care it la im just going to start on the physics june paper now already. and then do the njc gp compre. looks tough dunno if it is tough. then when i finish mugging all these my mental and intellectual blade is katana-sharp and i shall own the papers like nobody's problem.
but then hor, knn la! i cant seem to get going or even get started on working. its like the engine's cold and u cant move at all, no motivation at all and u just wanna go back and play harder. sucks cock la! but damn heng, at least i dont have the complacent feeling like i did during o lvls. must be the fact that i didnt get what a really wanted, that is aaaa. yuck, in fact im abt 2 places behind that score larh! must work harder for maths and econs, really did like fuck for pure maths looked thru the paper today. so careless and so fucked up cos i didnt know how to do a few qns. wtf! how can dunno how to do qns at this point in time, it sud be all perfect.
lucky tho, cos yesterday got back chem and GP, and (phew) got A for chem, with 41/50 for the pract, that is scaled from 75. wow! headshot! and the titration got 7/8 for accuracy and kinetics got perfect accurcy. oh yea! fast and efficient, my motto. no spillages no shit just pure power. muahahaha aint i good? time for a well deserved little ego trip. but then GP is like shit la, got B4 only, cos i practically screwed up my compre like a cheesebuns. 25.5 only. and then the qns all half mark one no wonder and my AQ is like, totally, out of point. yawnx.
sex la, still damn pissed over maths cos i didnt get a good mark for the pure maths part, supposed to be my forte and at the same time got better marks for the probs and stats option. argh. sucks shit i must mug hard now.
physics got A, not a great surprise but still disappointed, cos i didnt get 80% and worse, didnt top the level. think i migh have topped the class but who cares. that monster albert salim u took my rightful place i shall murder u now muahaha! jk albert we still love u. great news today, econs got B instead of C cos mdm indra said she counted wrongly. oh yea that means one thing, for this prelims, i got an okok but satisfactory for my "nv study kao tian chai" attack of
AABB
yay! so aint too sad aint too happy, just satisfied. hope my theory and prediction comes true, and i upgrade each grade by a grade between exams. happened for the midyrs-prelims part, so hope it'll happen. dont u all want it? if i get AAAA i will treat some of u gays dinner and all of u ice cream. muahahahaha. ice cream and chocolates! yes i think i deserve my dose of culinary sin now. *reaches for chocos*
yesterday damn sian and pissed cos the blogger.com died and cannot blog. hence this longer than usual entry of the life and rants of King YK, his majesty at your service. hohoho bhb attack!
restarted on dungeons and dragons yest and today, finally levelled up liao, so my sorc has got fireballs now. finally! good good lomelinde luv u lots for finally levelling up. stagnanting at lvl 5 kinda sucks anyway not our fault cos the game progresses so slowly since party mates are pek and fritters basically classmates so we are constricted by time. yawnx that is ultra sians. time must be free for all students to pursue all our activities of choice!
^ lomelinde! thanx fritties for the art!
so there. today got 2 more players also got arthur and clara joining us, but then dunno if they willing to stay back after school for a long time adventuring and all, and dunno if they will enjoy it. i know art wud, hes probs played this b4 but nt sure abt clara. this kinda stuff some ppl sure wont like, and i can predict that myself, 5 years ago, prob wont like it also. u wont find much fun watching number and rolling dices unless u have a vivid imagination that is wild and free, not desensitized by powerful game graphics and able to visualize the world with few words from dungeon master vinsingh ong kit liong.
of cos, im sure they wud haf fun anyways, its really just a glorified storytelling session with dice and role playing. fun! rolled great stats u molestors, so u better kill more freaks than suay suay fats who threw cocked up stats.
ok, end of story now, i shall go back to mugging. tonite i shall fuck care abt studying content and delve str into past papers and practice. practice practice practice until i break my fingers. as always, Blessed path, warriors! death to the undead! send in alucard!
Cheers.
yk ranted at 7:53 pm!
on Monday, October 04, 2004
finally, a sleep in day, but it was purposefully disrupted for a productive activity. and yes it is folks, its breakfast with family! hahaha. on a personal note sundays are family days so i shall sacrifice everything to stay at home on sundays. even "she" cannot make me do dat muahahaha, and then again what are the chances of that happening.
go maxwell hawker center, tried to find the hum jee peng that pek was recommending but coulding find the smeagol looking uncle selling it leh, so gave up and went to queue at the porridge stall. i cant go wrong when it has so many culinary awards right? got you xuan mei shi wang, got makansutra and got green book reccomend. so got century egg porridge and yu sheng. yu sheng for 3 bucks and the amnt of fish is waaay more than the CNY ones and its like a ninth of the cost.
but the true cost comes in the bloody time queuing! thot it wud be a fast queue, i mean comeon, porridge and raw fish salads are pretty quick jobs huh, but the fucking queue took me an hour to reach my turn! yawnx. and then accidently put too much of that salted vegetable thing so it tasted too salty. but the texture and the fish was good, so no complaints there. 4/5 from the king's palate that describes the quality of food. muaahhaa.
today no yi tian tu long ji. booooo i want my zhao min i want my zhao min but haf to accept the fact that she wont be here this sunda evening, so im going to sleep now muahahaha. go read my post yesterday if youre bored, this is a short entry heh heh and yesterdays's one got more meaning. =)
Once again, Blessed path warriors, stay strong and cheers.
yk ranted at 1:00 am!
on Saturday, October 02, 2004
sheesh im damn sad now cos the lame saturdays are back again. nooo! its the lame saturdays where im deprived of my saturday morning sleep-ins and gundam seed. happened last week and that sucks huge major cock man! so today, we had GP mock. fortunately it wasnt too bad, i tried to cram as much of my limited non-vulgar vocab into the essay and then got overly tired for the compre.
so i finished fast fast and decided to sleep. the delirium of the morning finally caught up with me and i fell fast asleep on to desk after the compre and that fucker irish moron woke me up. fuck off i have finished it u fucking tonsured prick. omar didnt thats his problem so u just shut the fuck up and fuck off. yawnx.
go for breakfast at BK with the usual gays, and brian edwin shimon at far east. very usual, after all its back to the old retuine of saturday go to school for lame shit and then leaving before the clock strikes 12 for some time in town walking arnd and laming. today's laming of choice was walking to paragon for fun and then going to the gymnasium there for a free tour.
free tour. sounds like porn shit lol! but its like so damn ex la, 118 per month and then the place so smallish liddat. but it kinda looks+feels good tho, but i aint too willing to pay somewhat over half my monthly pocket money for a membership that i would probably never use often. so lets not waste the money and go to our own condo gyms. hahahaha. but can see that guy was quite sian of yyg's inccessant denoucing of gyms cos he has his own gym at home -_-"
speak of gyms, went to watch Dodgeball yesterday. go watch it dudes, its fucking funny damn good! ben stiller is still as retarded as ever and his jokes are still as rich. u know y? cos at Globo gym, We're better than you and we know it! so there, i know im better than u now also. muahaha. ok im just tired and quite empty and devoid of stuff to rant.
hence this boredom fuels my wantings to write once again, so im embarking on a project now to write a short story that is incidently free of corny jokes and sex. quite an achievement. hahaha sorry peeps it aint the sex stories vincent churns out, its just a plain story that i think u wud find boring but its of a fine achievement for myself. personal satisfaction oh yeah.
but the inspiration is from something more personal on mypart. being such a boring day and all it gives me more time to think back on what i have done this past year and what i have done and only one word keep coming back to my mind. actually its more like a name, and its u-know-who and u will only know if i tell u. hehe i wonder if my personal secret keeper edwina knows abt this. but anyways, for some strange freaky reason i just keep thinking about her right now, even though it has been over 3 painful months of separation already. it just seems that i simply cannot forget her. but and then how can anyone just close the file on the person you love so dearly like that *puff!*. certainly not. i must have been lying to myself when i said to myself that the sooner i forget abt her the better it is.
of course that doesnt work, and i still yearn for her now. perhaps im just a sad case of too little love that each time i do feel it it kinda seems like a big thing hahaha! bottomline is, it sucks, not being with the one you really like because of divergence of your lives. blast! must that short science center stint be that only times we are together? argh. so damn sad, she's got a career now to climb and all, and im just a small fry in her life probably. (shut up yyg. =X) really hope what vince says might be right, what if she feels the same way too and then it would be a bloody wasted chance, cos technically i have not told her that i like her. hehehe humji arh! but and then again i'd think she can catch the hints larh, and the prognosis is no good. so interesting lyrics to describe this, and think iris would do just fine. hehe, nice songs reccomended by nice people such as myself.
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
still i shall take no chances, after all those reminiscing and thinking and reflections today, and one of these days i will say it to her in the most beautiful language around.
je vous aime
its french. thing is, i wont know when will i see her again, and if i dont do the latter how will i ever accomplish the former? pain pain. yawnx. really honestly, it doesnt matter abt her age, comeon, its only 4 years which means she's just starting to work, and in order to make it work im more than willing to sacrifice everything i have for it, for example i more than willing to give up my asipirations to study/work overseas if things would haf worked out back in july.
unfortunately it didnt. yawnx.
hahahaha, just got reminded that yesterday spent a great deal of $ at lips cafe while waiting for Dodgeball to start. the sole reason we watched the 735 show was cos we were waiting for shimon to eat his bloody noodles like a wussy at the school canteen. where's you sense of urgency u girl, quote patches. hohoho. so reach cini dat time is already 530 just nice miss the 520 show and the 10 min difference was cos he was slurping his soup. walao i think school food is expensive and disgusting la. sucks shit. wonder y he stay so long to eat for wat then we miss movie time.
if bro paul ever reads this then read this : school food sucks real bad can we have new operators and lowered rents. please go to either of these ways, making food as cheap as the NJ canteen, or as good and quality as the SA cafe. man i miss the western food and noodles at sajc cafeteria. the cafe has good food, ambience and scenery. it faces the track too also and as all of you know they have white pe t shirts and really short shorts. semi transparent FBT ones as of our year but its the last one. jnr year saints wear something else i think, and thats *sad* hahaha jk!
miss the 1st 3 mnths. haiz. fuck my o level results.
damn heng i declined to be valedictorian for graduation. its supposed to be a great honour but in my opinion, i dont really care. so stressful and so sian and no points. honour can go eat shit if its not tangile. furthur proof of monetization of our society that gives too much emphasis on what's real and discount any intangible benefits. sad sad plastic sgp society just needs to change, and remember, its our govt policies in the 80s that left us in this cultural and moral rut.
anyways, i'd still say no to valedictorian cos its so stressful! look at shimon hes growing white hair now i can sense it. hahaha. good luck for ur speaking, public speaking is fun i might be able to teach u how to do public speeches. heh. remember to ignore jeers and acknowledge the crowd.
oh well, think this is a pretty long long rant, going back to my sorrows filled with you know who. if, by any chance she reads this, then please, give me a chance! or i will certainly live out a life of regret and misery.
once again, Blessed path, warriors! good nite, cheers.
yk ranted at 10:36 pm!
on Friday, October 01, 2004
today got back physics, except paper 3. maybe get it tmr? hope so. all i know is that so far i need 65/110 for the paper 3 to get an A. but confirm cannot get 90% liao. oh fuck i'd need that to beat the albert salim. full marks for mcq, that guy, and i got only 28/30. bleah, and its careless mistake. haiz, i sud learn to be more careful, at least not to the point like shimon and fritters, they shaded the optical sheet wrongly. not too bad discovered i got a B for maths. at least not a C means its improvement, so it aint too bad.
just watched OC, real nice. that oliver is such a dick. huge dick dont like him at all ever since he appeared in the show. hes got the extreme form of the 'gay-of-a-malay' syndrome that has symtoms of pulling out a gun and holding ur friend's gf hostage and threatening to wreck her life my takin your own. bleah what a total loser. hope next episode he goes to jail then can laugh, but at least the rift bet (chiobu) merisa and ryan is closed. ah wonderful closure to a complicated problem.
yes ed, i'd agree with u now, anna looks chioer with the progression of each episode, but ur wrong abt merisa, shes hot. almost as hot as TH oh yea hahahaha. but its wierd how come these ang mohs look so old when they're just my age. strange-ness, i think its their nutrition that makes them grow so big and tall and have these big boobs that are kinda disgusting. small and petite is nice, not the freaky huge ones that pek favours. hahaha.
oh yes yes and just to add, OC is nice cos its orange. hahahahaha!
stopid eric and vinsingh gives too much pressure to study, so i studied chem today. chemical bonding and all those shit, and i still gotta say, this webbie i found is very good for all you persuers of the chemical knowledge, at least up to the A levels. it is much better than the step-by-step book that you all find pretty satisfactory but i think lacks depth. it is after all a study guide, wonder how come we can make do with it as a full note but oh well at least studying for chem will mean getting A's unlike maths. bleah!
commenting on the singh's recent entry, kinda disagree with that. first off, "suka" is a pseudo form of the word "sucka" which has its roots in the word "sucker". interesting thing to note is that the one getting upset over the term "suka" is the one that doesnt speak of it at all. think shimon can attest to it. after all, isnt it just kinda ironic now that we are complaining abt scathing remarks and words when it is after all ourselves who are the bigoted and self centered bunch who takes pleasure in shooting down others and each other, especially with the tools of character assasination.
though it isnt really character assasination but it borders onto it as it is spoken in jest. but personally it is quite irritating at times but of course you get used to it after like 4 years of it. hahaha, so chill, aint too bad dont get too pissed with anyone and i'll assure everyone that my temper has a huge buffering capacity and i can take all the shit u dish out without exploding but there is a limit and like buffer solutions the pH changes drastically.
take hints, learn when to stop. really, just because being in a group doesnt mean that shit is 100% tolerated. sometimes i just wonder, during my silent solitude of reflectionary times on the bus alone, why the hell are we so bloody self centered, at times bigoted, and assume to be on top of the world when there's actually alot of people to beat. as much as i would love to deny that i am not, i cannot help but admit to the taking of perverse pleasure in knowing that i, sometimes, are among the best and have beat a great deal of number of people to it, and would make really scalding quips about the other's inferiority.
while it might be true, for example, comeon bloody hell is it that hard to get less than 20 points? for us its natural to get somewhat around the 12 13 14 range that we take for granted our natural endownments of the mind that make it all seem so easy, but im certain that there are many others who even struggle to hit 30, and others who feel that the stuff we get are the nonsense and rabble that should be frowned upon. oh well, have got to learn to be alot more sensitive to these people's feelings (not inferior) and kinda hush hush sometimes.
ah well, thank goodness its friday tomorrow, but we have some idiotic physics mock practical and then another mock GP exam on saturday. stop with all the mockery already =(
Blessed path, warriors! and take the sensitive road. SNAG hahahaaha! cya tc cheers.
yk ranted at 1:00 am!
the collaborators *
i cant be fucked linking!
the photographic evidence *
lies!
the incriminating evidence *
everlasting .
depression .
melodramatic .
ORANJELAIR
-yk